Title: No Doubts At All
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: Hannibal Lecter/Will Graham
Fandom: Hannibal
Rating: PG-13
Table: 50ficlets
Prompt: 33, Doubts
Author's Note: Sequel to "Love on Their Side."
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely Hannibal Lecter or Will Graham, unfortunately, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.
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"Do you have any doubts at all about this, Will?""Why would you ask me that?" Will looked at Jack quizzically, his brow furrowing into a perplexed frown. "Of course I don't have any doubts, Jack. Why would I?"
Jack only shook his head, sighing softly. "I don't know, Will. Forget that I asked. I just can't help wondering if you're sure that you're doing the right thing."
"You think that Hannibal talked me into getting married, that I don't really want to," Will stated, his voice flat. "That's not true, Jack. I'm not some kind of puppet who can only do what Hannibal tells me to, you know. I'm my own person, and I make my own decisions."
"I know that," Jack said, shaking his head again. "I didn't mean to imply that you weren't. I just know that when it comes to Hannibal, you're not always objective."
"Is anybody objective when it comes to the person they're in love with?" Will asked, trying to smile. "Don't worry, Jack. I'm doing exactly what I want to do. I have no doubts."
Jack smiled, nodding this time. "All right, Will. I believe you."
As his boss left his office, Will leaned back in chair, closing his eyes and sighing softly. Jack wasn't the only person who had asked him if he had any doubts about marrying Hannibal.
Everybody seemed to think that he should have doubts about getting married. Once in a while, even he himself wondered if he was doing the right thing.
Of course he was, Will told himself firmly. He was marrying the man he loved, the man he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. There were absolutely no doubts in his mind that he was doing what would make him happy. And he was sure that Hannibal felt the same.
Though sometimes, he worried about their future.
What if Hannibal tired of him? What if, at some point, Hannibal realized that he could have done so much better than Will, that he needed a more urbane, sophisticated partner?
That was the biggest doubt in his mind -- that he'd be able to measure up to what Hannibal wanted and needed. There were times when he thought that he would fail miserably.
What if he did? What if Hannibal eventually walked away from him?
Will could feel panic rising within him at the very thought of that happening. It wouldn't, he told himself, trying to tamp down on that panic, on the doubts that were suddenly crowding into his mind. Hannibal wasn't the kind of man who would walk away from a commitment.
Besides, Hannibal wouldn't have proposed to him and intend to marry him if he thought that they wouldn't work out, would he? His fiancé was nothing if not practical.
No, there was no way that Hannibal would be going into what was supposed to be a lifetime commitment if he didn't think that they were going to stay together.
He had to push these doubts away. He didn't need them.
Besides, they weren't worthy of Hannibal, Will told himself, slamming a mental door on those doubts and turning his back on them. They were just nerves trying to manifest.
There was no reason for him to have any doubts. Hannibal loved him, and he loved Hannibal. They were going to get married, and they were going to be happy.
He had to focus on their future together, on the happiness that they would share. If he didn't, then he would let the doubts that other people seemed to have about their relationship seep into his consciousness, and he would start to worry about problems that weren't there.
He and Hannibal could talk out any problems they might have, Will assured himself. They'd already managed to do that more than once, so they could do it in the future.
They would have a marriage that lasted. They would still be together when they were old and grey -- and they'd still be just as much in love as they were now.
That, he definitely had no doubts about.
His feelings for Hannibal wouldn't change. They couldn't. He loved his fiancé far too much for that. Hannibal was his life, his world, the center of his universe.
Hannibal had become the light of his life. Maybe he'd even been that light before they had gotten engaged; maybe he'd always been the lone star in Will's heaven that shone the brightest.
Well, maybe Hannibal wasn't everything in his life, he corrected himself. He had his teaching, and he had his work with the FBI. Though he wasn't sure if he would keep that up once he was married. It was too jarring, much too unsettling for that to still be a part of his life.
He would have to talk to Hannibal about it, see what he thought. But Will was fairly sure that when he was happily married, he would no longer have anything to offer Jack.
It would feel so good not have to deal with crimes scenes, dead bodies, and going into the minds of killers any more. He wanted that part of his life to be over, part of the past. He wanted to leave it behind.
That disturbing influence would be completely gone, and he wouldn't miss it.
No, he had no doubts at all about his upcoming marriage, he thought with a smile. He knew that he was doing what was right for him, and what he wanted to do.
If anyone else had doubts, then they could keep them to themselves. He had come too far to turn back now, and his heart kept leading him forward to his destiny -- and his happiness.
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