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Title: The First Day of Falling in Love
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: Will Graham/Lee Fallon
Fandom: Hannibal/The Big C
Rating: PG-13
Table: writers_choice
Prompt: #532, First day of ....
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely Will Graham or Lee Fallon, unfortunately, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.


No one had ever made him feel like this. Ever.

Lee was dying. He knew it. But wasn't everyone dying, one day at a time? Will asked himself, curling up in the corner of the couch as he waited for Lee to come back from the bathroom. Some people were just dying more quickly than others that was all.

He didn't care if Lee only had weeks left, or if he had years, or even decades. He wanted to spend all of that time with Lee, to be with him every second.

He couldn't do that, of course. He had to go to work, and Lee would be spending hours at the hospital, taking part in those clinical trials he'd come here to participate in. But every moment that they could be together, he wanted to spend glued to Lee's side.

He didn't want to think about the inevitable.

No, it wasn't inevitable, Will told himself firmly. Lee could be one of the people that this new trial worked for. He could find a cure. Other people survived cancer -- there was no reason why Lee couldn't, too. Death wasn't inevitable. Will didn't even want it to be an option.

He didn't want to think of Lee cold and lifeless, his body in a grave. He wanted to think of Lee alive and well, warm and vibrant and smiling at him.

He wanted to be in Lee's arms, looking into those beautiful blue eyes, feeling those hands on his body and those lips on his. He wanted to give himself to Lee. Tonight.

This was the first time he'd fallen in love, and it had hit him suddenly, like the proverbial ton of bricks. This was the first day of falling in love, the first day of knowing that he could spend the rest of his life with one special person, the first time his heart had ever reached out.

It was exhilarating, frightening, and breathtaking, all at the same time.

Feeling that he was falling head over heels wasn't something that came easily to him; part of him was afraid of the intimacy, but part of him reached for it and pulled it close to him.

What if Lee didn't feel the same? The thought snatched the breath from Will's lungs, making his heart skip a beat. No, that couldn't be true. That kiss had meant something, to Lee as well as to him. No one could kiss him like that and not have lost their heart as well.

Maybe Lee had been in love before. Maybe this wasn't the first time he had fallen for someone. Will didn't care about that; whoever that person might have been, they were in Lee's past. He was Lee's future; the two of them belonged to each other now.

He believed that as firmly as he believed the earth was round, the sky was blue, and the sun was hot. He was Lee's, in every possible way.

Nothing was going to keep him from this man. Not even the threat of death.

He looked up when Lee appeared in the doorway, smiling at him and holding out a hand. Less crossed the room to sit down beside him, sliding an arm around Will's waist and pulling him close. For what felt like a very long time, neither one of them spoke.

Finally, Lee broke the silence between them. "You're thinking about the future, aren't you?" he said softly, his voice barely above a whisper. "And about the fact that I might not have much of one. I don't want to break your heart, Will. Not ever."

Will nodded slowly, his blue gaze meeting Lee's.

"You won't break my heart," he said, his voice hoarse with need. "Don't worry about me, Lee. Just let me fall in love with you, because I can't stop it from happening."

Lee leaned forward, raising his free hand to stroke Will's cheek. Will closed his eyes at the feeling of those long, cool fingers stroking through his tumbled dark curls; he wanted those hands everywhere on his body, touching him all over.

Maybe the trials wouldn't work, and he would only have Lee for a short time. If that was what fate intended for them, then so be it. It was better to have Lee for a little while, to let love fill his heart and soul and to give himself up to it, than to never know what it was like to love him.

He wanted to let himself fall into what he was feeling, to experience it fully. He wanted to love Lee with no hesitation, no reservations.

And he would. If Lee would let him.

This was the first day of the rest of his life, the day that he'd met the man he would love forever. Just looking into Lee's vivid blue eyes had changed him irrevocably; he would never be the same again now that he knew what it was like to fall in love.

Will closed his eyes, parting his lips, waiting for Lee's kiss. He knew that it was coming; he could tell by the look in those blue eyes that Lee meant to kiss him.

He would let Lee kiss him, touch him, do anything he wanted with him. He had already opened his heart, and he was letting Lee come inside and settle there.

He wanted Lee in his heart. Whether they only had a short time together, or whether they had many years ahead of them, he wanted this man to be a part of him. Losing Lee wasn't an option. Not now that he had finally found everything that he'd ever wanted.

All rolled into this one perfect, beautiful man.

"I don't care how much time we might have," Lee whispered against Will's lips. "I want to spend all of that time with you, Will. Being with you and loving you. If you'll let me. If you want me. If you can deal with knowing that our time might be really limited."

Will could do nothing but nod; he didn't trust himself to speak. He was sure that if he did, he would cry with the happiness that was bursting into bloom within him.

He was sure that Lee felt just as he did, that this was the first day of falling in love for him, too. It didn't matter if there had been others in the past. All that mattered was the here and now, and their future. The rest of their lives together.

This was only the first day, and there would be many more to follow.