Title: Darkening of the Light
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: John Reese/Jordan Hester
Fandom: Person of Interest
Rating: PG-13
Table: 1drabble
Prompt: 14, Sun
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely John Reese or Jordan Hester, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.


Jordan had seen him. He hadn't planned on that happening. The world felt as though it had stopped turning, the darkening of the light not gradual, but a quick plunge into night.

John had been sure that he would take care of business and get out of the area he'd been in much more quickly than he had; he hadn't thought that his boyfriend would be there at the bus stop, or that Jordan would stare directly into his eyes after he'd just shot a man.

Jordan wasn't supposed to be there. Yes, he had known that the office building Jordan worked in was right across the street from where he needed to be, but he hadn't realized that his boyfriend would be working late. He had assumed that Jordan would be at home, waiting for him.

So much for assumptions.

How was he going to explain this to Jordan? It wasn't as though he could come clean about everything that he did; Jordan could know some of what he spent his time doing, but the further away he was from John's professional life, the better off he was.

It would be far too easy for anyone who chose to revenge themselves on him to use Jordan as a means of doing so. And he wasn't going to have the man he loved caught in the middle of something that he didn't know about. He wouldn't have Jordan used as bait.

Finch kept telling him that it was bound to happen sooner or later, and warning him that at some point, he'd have to make a choice between his relationship with Jordan, and what the two of them did. John ignored those warnings; he didn't want to think about the future.

The only future he wanted to contemplate was the one he wanted to have with Jordan. The future where he would feel that he'd made amends for his past, where he could walk away from all this and spend the rest of his life basking in the warm sunshine of Jordan's love.

But after tonight, he might not have a future with Jordan at all.

There was a good chance that Jordan would walk away from him after what he'd seen -- and John wouldn't blame him. After tonight, that sun that warmed his world might go dark; he might never see his lover's smile again, might never be welcomed into Jordan's arms.

He didn't want that sunshine to be gone from his life forever. He had to hold on to it, had to explain to Jordan why he had been there, and why he had shot a man. He had to keep that sun burning in his sky. He couldn't lose Jordan now, not when he needed him the most.

John closed his eyes and took a deep breath as he approached Jordan's building, hoping that he could find the words that would stop the darkening of the light before he was swallowed by darkness.