Title: Open Book
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: John Reese/Jordan Hester
Fandom: Person of Interest
Rating: PG-13
Table: 1drabble
Prompt: 16, Book
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely John Reese or Jordan Hester, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.

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Jordan sighed as he leaned back in his desk chair, closing his eyes and thinking of John. He tried to focus on his work when he was here, but it was hard to keep his boyfriend out of his mind lately. John managed to sneak into his thoughts most of the time lately.

He was going to have to be more careful about that, Jordan told himself firmly. He'd just gotten this job when John had helped him get his identity back; he didn't need to lose it so soon by daydreaming and letting his boyfriend take over his thoughts.

But that was so hard not to do.

John was the most fascinating person he'd ever met; if his lover hadn't come back into his life after his identity crisis, he would have been a much less fortunate man. John made his life interesting; falling in love made life worth living, gave him a reason to go on.

He'd always wondered how it would feel to love someone completely; now he knew. But loving John wasn't the easy walk in the park it might have been with someone else.

He was usually fairly good at reading people; he'd gotten even better at it during the months he'd worked as a bar back when that woman had stolen his identity. But John was one person he couldn't read like an open book, and Jordan doubted that he ever would be.

Where other people had spaces in their lives that they filled in with idle chatter, letting the people around them learn small, insignificant things about who they were, John never filled those spaces. He was always a man of mystery, never revealing much about himself.

He'd revealed more to Jordan than he probably had to anyone else, with the possible exception of his partner. But still, he would never be easy to read.

It was one of the things that made him so intriguing, Jordan had to admit. And also one of the things that could make loving him so frustrating. He could only get so far into John's life, into his past, before he would hit a brick wall that John seemed to have no intention of removing.

But one day, he would tear that wall down. He had to.

He owed that to John, as well as to himself. He couldn't let the man he loved keep hiding himself away behind that wall he'd kept up for so long. John deserved better than that -- and one day, Jordan vowed, he would break down that wall and make sure that it was never raised again.

Maybe one day, he would be able to read John like an open book, he told himself with a sigh as he looked down at his desk and tried to focus his attention on his work again. But somehow, he doubted that he would ever know the man he loved as fully as he wanted to.

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