Title: Opposites Attract
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: Josef Kostan/Mick St. John
Fandom: Moonlight
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1,640
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely Josef Kostan or Mick St. John, unfortunately. Please do not sue.***
"Sometimes I wonder just why you were attracted to me," Mick told Josef as the two of them lay in bed, his hand stroking down his lover's bare back. "When we first met, you sure didn't seem to like me much, even though you were a perfect gentleman."
Josef laughed, shaking his head, a rueful expression on his face. "Honestly? I thought you were boring at first. I figured that Coraline would get tired of you because you were nothing more than a pretty face, and that you'd never make a good vampire."
"So you guessed right from the beginning that she was going to turn me?" Mick asked, his voice turning a bit sharp. "If you thought that, then why didn't you try to talk her out of it?" He couldn't keep the slight edge of accusation out of his tone.
"Because I didn't really think she would," Josef sighed, shifting his position so that his head was resting more comfortably on his lover's shoulder. "I thought she'd get tired of you. I didn't expect her obsessions to start centering around building an eternal life with you."
"I wish they hadn't," Mick muttered, raising his hand to stroke his fingers through Josef's hair. "But if she hadn't turned me, maybe somebody else would have. Or more than likely, I'd have gotten myself killed and nobody would have hard to worry about me again."
"I'm glad that didn't happen," Josef said softly, pressing a kiss to Mick's bare shoulder. "If you'd gotten yourself killed, then I'd go through eternity being a really lonely guy. And you wouldn't have wanted that to happen, would you? You know how much I hate being lonely."
"You always have," Mick answered softly, his heart going out to his lover. No one knew how much that loneliness could ache, how it could eat into a soul, better than a vampire, he thought to himself. He'd felt that loneliness too, more than he wanted to admit.
And he would never subject the man he loved to it. If he hadn't been turned, if he'd died while he was still human, then he would have never known Josef in the way that he did now; he'd never have known what it was like to truly love someone.
He wouldn't have wanted Josef to suffer that loneliness. But now, he'd never have to, Mick told himself firmly. He had been turned, and it was no use contemplating what his human life, or the rest of Josef's eternity, would have been like if it hadn't happened.
"Let's not think about it," he said aloud, turning his head to brush a gentle kiss across Josef's brow. "The fact is, I was turned, I'm here with you, and I'm not going anywhere. I'm more interested in knowing just why you fell for me all those years ago."
Josef shrugged, his tone contemplative when he spoke. "I can't honestly say just why," he mused, his voice soft and thoughtful. "I know that I wanted you the first time I saw you, when Coraline introduced us. I just didn't want to admit it to myself at the time."
"After what happened to you the night you were turned, I don't blame you for that," Mick murmured, then was instantly sorry that he'd said those words. That had been a horrible nightmare for Josef; he didn't need to bring it up, not into this peaceful night that they were sharing.
But Josef didn't seem to be focusing on that as he went on. "I was scared to admit that I could actually want another man .But I knew that I did, even if I kept telling myself that it wasn't possible. And you know me, Mick. I always get what I want."
"Yeah, you sure do," Mick said, affection in his voice. "But what was the attraction, Josef? I know you thought I was good-looking, but it had to go deeper than that. I didn't think you even liked me, much less thought you could be attracted to me."
"Opposites attract, y'know," Josef told him, lifting his head from Mick's shoulder and flashing that crooked smile that Mick had grown to love so much. I thought you were a human idiot, sure. But I could see past that, even in those first few minutes."
"I was an idiot at the time," Mick said, his tone wry. "I thought Coraline really loved me. And I didn't have any idea of what she was, even though she'd given me a few clues here and there. I chose not to read those clues -- and that was my first mistake."
"I knew she didn't really love you," Josef said, his voice dry. "I'm sorry, Mick. I know it hurts to hear that, especially given how you used to feel about her -- but that's the way Coraline has always been. She goes through periods of obsession, then on to the next shiny new thing."
"I should have known that from the start," Mick admitted, sighing. "But I didn't -- and I was stupid enough to get drawn into her web. But it's not all bad, is it? Because of her obsession with me, I have you now. And I can't be unhappy about that."
"If she hadn't turned you, I don't know if I could have," Josef said softly, tilting his head back to look up at Mick. "After I failed with Sarah, I was scared to try to turn anybody else. I'd never tried to turn anybody before her, you know. I didn't want the same thing to happen to you."
"But I'm a lot stronger than she was," Mick pointed out. "Look at what happened when you had to turn me for the second time. I didn't have any problem crossing over to the vamp world. And I don't think I would have if you'd turned me the first time, either."
"But at the time, I was too scared to try," Josef told him, shaking his head. "Even though I wanted to. I don't even have words to describe how much I wanted to. I was so attracted to you that I fucking hated Coraline for being with you."
"You did? You never let on," Mick said, surprised by Josef's words. "She always said you two were good friends, and I never thought you didn't like her. I was always a little wary of you at first, because I thought you might have wanted to be with her."
"Her?" Josef's voice was filled with disgust and disdain. "I wanted to be with some women back then, Mick, but never with her. She and I were too much alike in too many ways. And you know me. Opposites attract. In more ways than they should."
"But that's a point in our favor, isn't it?" Mick said with a soft laugh. "We were attracted to each other in spite of the fact that you thought I was a boring, weak human, and I thought you were a rich, spoiled, pompous ass. We got past that, though."
"Yeah, I guess we did, at that," Josef agreed, his own laugh joining Mick's. "I never would have thought that I'd end up being with you. I thought you were way too entranced by Coraline. I didn't think that her turning you would end up finally dividing you from her."
"You knew that I wouldn't want to be turned, didn't you?" Mick asked, his voice strained. "You had to know. You knew me well enough after the first few times we met when I was human to know that I'd hate her for turning me into a monster."
"And that's another reason I never wanted to turn you," Josef said, his words not really an answer to the question, though Mick knew that was all the answer he would get. "Even if I hadn't been scared that you'd go the same way as Sarah did, I didn't want you to hate me."
"You turned me the second time, and I don't hate you," Mick whispered, placing a finger under Josef's chin and making his lover look up at him again. "I never could. You should have known that. You should have known that my attraction to you would overcome anything."
"Mine finally did, didn't it?" Josef asked, winking at him. "I got past my doubts and finally told you how I felt. And I don't think you would ever have guessed if I hadn't said anything. You'd have gone on thinking we could be 'just friends' for eternity."
"I'd never have thought that," Mick said softly, his voice husky with emotion. "I'd have found some way to tell you how I felt, Josef. It might have taken me a while to find the right words, but I'd have done it. I could never have gone through eternity just being your friend. I'd always have wanted more."
"And so would I," Josef told him, his own voice as quiet as Mick's. "Neither one of us would have been satisfied with just friendship. The attraction has always been too strong for that. I'm surprised we held back as long as we did, really."
"Too long," Mick agreed, his voice thick with desire. He drew Josef closer against him, moving one hand down his boyfriend's bare back to cup his ass. Oh yes, opposites did indeed attract. And he considered himself very lucky indeed that they did.***