Title: Not anymore
By: ebonyjet
Pairing: Jack/Ianto
Rating: PG
Author's Notes: Lol just something silly. I needed to show every one the softer side of Jack.
Summary: How can Ianto explain to Jack why he can't be the part time shag anymore?

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“Sir, I cant do this any more.”
“What are you talking about?”
Ianto pulled up his smart dark blue pants and redid the button, “I can’t do… this.”

Jack slowly lifted his half naked body off the camp bed in the room that served as his sleeping quarters. “You don’t want to be with me anymore?”
Ianto shook his head and fiddled with the buttons of his white shirt,
“I do, you know I do! It’s just…” He trailed off looking sadly at Jack’s confused and slightly flushed face.

Taking in the toned top half of his bosses body, slowly moving his eyes down to where his black boxer shorts joined his flesh, covering the part of Jack, Ianto wanted most.

“What?” Jack’s voice came soft and calm but his eyes confused and sad.

“I just can’t be this close to you… and not BE with you… I’m saying this wrong… just forget it, Sir.”
Jack stood and shook his head, “No, I wont just forget it! What do you mean?”
“Jack, I love you! That not a secrete! I want to be with you all the time, I want you so much it hurts… but I can’t do it!”
“Why not?”

Ianto turned away from Jack avoiding his soft eyes. “Because you don’t!”
Jack reached out to pull Ianto into his arms and cuddle him, but the Welsh man stepped back,
“I do, Ianto… I want you… I need you.”
“But you don’t love me.” Ianto’s eyes filled with tears and he couldn’t help but feel as if the world was falling down around him. “You love her, and him…”

Jack didn’t know what to say, it was true that he had very deep loving feeling towards Ianto, and that he couldn’t stop thinking about having him in his arms… but it was also true that Jack didn’t really know if he loved Ianto in the same way the other man loved him.

Could Jack love Ianto like that? Everyone he loved left... and maybe it was because just loved Ianto so much he didn't want to admit to loving him. Just incase he left him?

“You mean the Doctor and Rose?” He asked knowing the answer.
Out of ever one in the hub Ianto knew more about Jack and his past then anyone. Jack had trusted him with his feelings and memories, had even told Ianto about his beloved Doctor and the beautiful Rose.

Ianto nodded and when he raised his eyes to look in to Jack’s there were tears running slowly down his cheeks,
“I know, you don’t love me… I just wish, … I wish, I could just … be a tiny bit like him… like the Doctor, maybe even a little like Rose… then maybe we could… But I’m not like them, Sir. I’m just me… I’m just… The teaboy… not a time lord… not a beautiful time travelling girl… I’m just an insignificant man!”

Jack shook his head and grabbed Ianto by the arms shaking him a little, Don’t you ever… ever say that again! Your more then that!” Jack ground his teeth in a vain attempt to keep his voice down, “You're more than just a tea boy… More than just some man! … You're my man!” Jack smile knowing now how he felt and what he needed to say, “And, yeah … I love you.”

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