Previous part of Unexpected Discoveries.

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Chapter 11

JJ looked around her closet desperately trying to find something to wear that would be worthy of Emily Prentiss. She almost felt ridiculous, because she and Emily had spent numerous nights in her apartment having movie marathons, girls nights in or just simply hanging out. Emily had seen her in her sweats, her pajamas, and her underwear. That last thought made JJ flush a little. She had never made anything of parading with barely no clothes on before Emily, but now it was so much different. Now it would be a big deal.

"Aghhh!" She exclaimed with anger as she threw another top out of her closet. Why was this so difficult to choose one stupid outfit? And she loved the fact that things between her and Emily had changed, but she kind of missed not caring what to wear when Emily was coming over.

She took a while to once again carefully look through her closet in search for something that would fit the occasion. Though, to be honest, she didn't really fully comprehend what the occasion was.

Finally, after another fifteen minutes or so, she decided on grey pants and a dark green top. She decided it wasn't too festive, but it was a little more than she would wear for a typical evening in with a friend.

Now it was time to fix her make-up. Of course she didn't want to go overboard with it, but she knew she couldn't just not do it at all, like she often had in the past when the girls would come over. When she was done, she was quite pleased with herself and hoped that Emily would be satisfied with the result as well.

When she finally put her clothes on and fixed her hair, she realized that she still had about half an hour before Emily got to her apartment. All the different emotions started to build up again. She was feeling aflutter and she really didn't know whether she wanted for Emily to get there as soon as possible or whether she needed another three hours to mentally prepare herself for the evening.

As she sat in silence waiting for Emily to arrive she kept going over all the things that were supposed to be ready for the evening. The wine was in the cooler, the food was in the oven ready to be heated up, the table was all set, she was fairly decent and presentable… It looked like everything was in place. Now all the needed was Emily.

Emily Prentiss stood outside of JJ's apartment and kept mentally rebuking herself for being so scared to ring one stupid doorbell. She could chase around psycho killers, take a beating from angry unsubs, yet somehow she couldn't remember being as terrified as she was standing outside of Jennifer Jareau's apartment before their date, or whatever the hell that meeting really was.

Here goes nothing, she sighed as she finally rang the doorbell. She heard JJ's footsteps and for a moment held her breath. She couldn't believe the things that were happening in her stomach when she saw the doorknob turning. And when she finally saw JJ standing in front of her, a huge smile spread across her face. JJ looked absolutely fantastic, although Emily noticed that the liaison hadn't gone all out on the make-up or the clothes. It was the same choice Emily had made herself, and it amazed her how they were on the same page about the whole thing.

"You look absolutely amazing." Emily finally said as she couldn't help but touch JJ's face and ran her hand through her beautiful blonde hair. "Beautiful." Emily added after a moment.

"You too." JJ replied and she really did think that Emily looked perfect. She wore her hair down, letting it fall onto her shoulders and JJ realized that she hadn't really had many chances to see Emily with her hair like that. It absolutely took JJ's breath away. And she couldn't help but smile when she realized that Emily's take on the outfit thing was similar – she was wearing black pants and a red top. And she looked absolutely radiant. "Come on in." JJ offered and stepped back to let Emily into the apartment. When Emily got in, JJ closed the door after her and followed her into the living room.

"Looks like I got myself a good deal here." Emily laughed as she noticed the nicely set table. "Who knew all I had to do is kiss you to let me use the nice china when I come over." She joked and was relieved to see that JJ was laughing as well.

"Yeah, I'm just so easy." JJ shot back with a smile and she looked at the couch. "Why don't you sit here for a moment and I'll turn the oven on. The food should be ready in about twenty minutes."

"OK, but there is one thing I need to do first." Emily grinned and pulled an unsuspecting JJ into her arms.

"Which is?" JJ asked, pretending she had no idea what Emily was about to do next, but in reality she had a very good idea and it was exactly what she wanted to do ever since Emily showed up at her doorstep.

"This." Was all Emily managed to say before her lips touched JJ's. She had been dreaming about this moment ever since their awkward little kiss by the coffee machine earlier that day. And when Emily felt JJ shiver in her arms, she knew that she wasn't the only one who had been looking forward to that kiss. JJ kissed her back with more passion that she had ever felt in her life.

When they broke apart, JJ slowly slipped out of Emily's embrace and headed towards the kitchen. When she got back a minute or so later, with a bottle of wine and two glasses in her hands, Emily was sitting comfortably on the couch with a huge grin on her face.

"A little happy, aren't we?" JJ asked happily and she herself couldn't get rid of a stupid grin on her face.

"You know damn right I am." Emily replied and looked at JJ with so much affection that it literally almost made JJ cry. She smiled at the other woman and handed her one glass.

"Here." She said. "I figured we could enjoy some good old chardonnay before the food is ready." She proposed as she next to Emily on the couch. "It's supposed to be really good."

"Sure." Emily agreed as she held her glass up so that JJ could pour the wine. "Thanks."

"So, how was your day?" Emily asked once they were both comfortable on the couch, holding their wine glasses.

"Horrible." JJ replied as she thought back to the stacks of papers she had gone through earlier. "I couldn't concentrate. All I could think about was this very moment, being with you and being able to kiss you without worrying that someone is going to walk in on us." She added as she leaned over to give Emily a soft kiss on the lips, trying to make sure she didn't spill any wine on her.

"Mmm, that feels nice." Emily moaned. "You, wine, the couch." She smiled as she kissed JJ back. "A perfect evening."

"It is pretty perfect, isn't it?" JJ asked as she put her arm around Emily and pulled her close to her. For a moment they sat in silence just drinking the wine and enjoying the feel of each other's arms. "Who would have thought…" JJ started pondering a while later. "If somebody had told me two months ago that I would be here with you, like this, I probably would have told them they were crazy."

"Well, do you think this is… crazy?" Emily asked still worried that JJ was going to back down of everything.

"No." JJ answered firmly. "I think that this is wonderful and right and the most amazing thing that I have ever felt in my life." She explained as she ran her free hand through Emily's hair. "You have no idea how you make me feel."

"Maybe I do." She grinned as she captured JJ's lips with hers. She could definitely feel the wine aftertaste, but most of all she just felt the taste of JJ's lips. She also realized that putting the glass away was a good idea, otherwise the wine was gonna end up all over her, JJ, or the couch. Apparently JJ had the same idea and she saw the blonde leaning towards the floor to put the glass down.

"It's a good wine." JJ smiled. "It would be a shame to waste it, wouldn't it?" She grinned as she brought her head back up to face Emily.

"Yes it would be." Emily agreed breathing heavily as her lips found JJ's again. The sensation filling her body was indescribable. It wasn't just lust and passion, although she was sure as hell she wanted to make love to JJ. But the feelings she had were far from being just sexual – she didn't just want JJ's body, she wanted her mind, her soul and most importantly her heart. The only problem was that she wasn't sure JJ was ready to give it to her yet.

When JJ felt Emily's hands roaming all over her body, she was terrified. She was terrified of the way it made her feel, terrified of what was inevitably going to happen if they didn't stop. And as much as Emily's kisses made her entire body shiver and as much as she longed for Emily's touch, she couldn't help but feel a little scared and unsure about how it was supposed to go down.

Suddenly they were both startled by the sound of the oven timer coming from the kitchen. They jumped apart like a couple of teenagers caught making out by the parents.

"The food is ready." JJ said, her breathing still a little shallow. "I'll go get it." She said and sped away towards the kitchen, leaving a very flushed Emily still on the couch. But as much as Emily wanted to make love to JJ, she knew JJ wasn't ready and she gladly welcomed the timer distraction. She knew it was going to be slightly easier to resist her urges once she and JJ were going to be sat at a table instead of a very comfortable couch.

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Chapter 12

After that first night together when it was so hard for both of them to keep their hands off each other, they decided that it might be easier for the time being to actually go out and meet in a public place. It wasn't so much a conscious decision as Emily simply suggesting ideas for three of their consecutive dates and JJ gladly accepting them. Neither of them was really ready for what was happening between them when they were alone together, so restaurants and movie theaters seemed like a little bit safer choice for the time being. Of course they wouldn't talk about it just yet, but they both knew that the other one must have been thinking about sex. And they knew and hoped that eventually it would happen, but were a little too scared to venture a guess as to when.

At work they tried really hard to stay professional, especially when the others were around, but every now and then they would steal a secret glance, a touch of hand or a kiss. And sometimes they almost wished someone would figure out what was going on between them to spare them the hassle of eventually coming out to the rest of the team. On some level, they even thought that maybe everybody already knew what was happening, but they wouldn't say anything just to torture them. After all, they were all great profilers, so it was kind of hard to believe that no one had any idea about their secret little affair.

It was around 2pm and JJ was in her office going through some files when she heard a knock on the door and heard a familiar voice.

"Hey, can I come in?" Emily's head popped inside the office.

"Sure, what to you need?"

"Files from the case in DC last week. Do you have them?"

"They should be somewhere around here." JJ said as she started going through some papers on her desk. The case was fresh, so she was sure the files were somewhere on her desk. "There they are!" She exclaimed as she found the right folder and stood up to hand it over to Emily. When she was doing that, Emily couldn't resist the urge to grab JJ's hand and pull her in for a kiss.

"You look so good behind that desk." Emily said in between kisses.

"Why agent Prentiss, this is a work place and some people are working." JJ tried to reprimand her and be serious about it, but she had a hard time coming off as serious when two seconds after she said that she had her tongue shoved down Emily's throat and her hands on the other agent's face. Emily was still holding the folder with her hand that was now on JJ's back and her other hand was behind JJ's head playing with her hair.

They knew they should stop, but it was so extremely difficult to pull away. It became a little easier, though, when they heard a voice coming from the door.

"I knew it!" It was Garcia popping her head inside and Emily and JJ immediately pulled away from each other and straightened their clothes. Although there really was no point, because Garcia's look was telling them that she indeed knew everything. "I thought I was gonna have to work really hard to get it out of you, so thank you very much for making it easy."

The three of them laughed, with Emily and JJ still a little bit embarrassed by the whole situation.

"You do know that this door locks, though, right?" Garcia asked after a moment and burst into laughter.

"I was just getting some files." Emily replied, her cheeks still a little rosy.

"I have gotten my fair share of files from JJ, but it has never involved tongues." Garcia pointed out grinning and both JJ and Emily couldn't help but laugh.

"You don't seem that shocked?" JJ finally asked curious.

"Yeah, well, it's no secret that Emily is gay." Emily turned to Garcia and tried to say something, but Garcia continued. "I know my stuff, honey." She grinned and turned to JJ. "You I haven't quite figured out yet…" Garcia paused for a moment. "Didn't you use to date men?"

"I did." JJ replied, biting her lips. "But that was before Emily showed me that I was clearly wasting my time on the opposite sex."

"So Emily turned you gay?" Garcia inquired, clearly very amused by the whole situation and dying to know the details.

"Do we really have to put a label on it?" JJ asked, not wanting anybody to start analyzing her now.

"I guess we don't." Garcia agreed and after a moment of silence she added. "Damn I knew something was up in the last couple of weeks, but I couldn't quite figure out what it was, because I always assumed JJ was, well, straight. But now it all makes sense – the secret looks, the touches… I can't believe I didn't put two and two together earlier."

"Well now you know." JJ smiled.

"Yes, and I am so happy for you guys. Really." Garcia squealed, "You are so absolutely cute together. Seriously, that is the best news I've heard in a really, really long time." Garcia continued to say with tons of excitement in her voice. And after a moment, she walked up to the two of them and gave them both a hug. "Oh, I'm just so happy." She smiled and headed towards the door and before she left, she turned around to face them once again. "Well, I'll be on my way then. You two carry on." She winked.

"Was there something that you needed?" JJ asked, suddenly remembering that there must have been a reason Garcia was storming into her office at 2pm.

"Oh, right!" Garcia stopped. "Nothing urgent, though. I just wanted to see if you maybe wanted to get lunch or something, because as much as I love my computers, I needed a break." She said and added, "But now I see that you have much more exciting plans for the afternoon than lunch with good ol' me, so I'll just let you guys go back to whatever it is that you were doing before I came in." She left the office, but not before she shared piece of advice with her two friends. "Just be sure to lock the door next time you decide to have a make out session in the middle of the day."

"So that's that." JJ said leaning against the door after Garcia left. "Nice going, Prentiss!" She chuckled.

"Yeah, like it's my fault that you tried to suck my face off, Jareau!" She shot back in between her own laughs. "I guess we don't have to worry about how to tell everyone else." Emily pointed out, knowing that Garcia won't last long without spilling the beans.

"I guess we don't." JJ sighed.

"Are you OK with it?" Emily questioned after a moment.

"With what?"

"With everyone else knowing about us." Emily explained. "Are you sure this is what you want? Because if you don't, we can talk to Garcia and…"

"No." JJ protested. "Let her share the news, we've been hiding it long enough and it's not like we would be able to hide it forever." She smiled gently. "And I'm fine, really." She assured the other agent. "How can you want to hide the fact that you're with the most amazing person in the world?" She asked as she took Emily's hand in hers and after a moment asked, "Are you sure you are OK with everybody knowing about us?"

"Absolutely." She smiled. "At least all the guys will stop hitting on you once they find out you're not swinging that way. You're gonna make dozens of men very disappointed." She grinned.

"Very funny." JJ chuckled and leaned in for another kiss. Emily kissed her back only to pull away after a moment with a very disappointed look on her face.

"As much as I would to stay here and continue this," she started and sighed, "I do have to get back to work."

"I know." JJ managed to steal one last kiss before Emily turned to leave. "Feel free to drop by if you… need any files, agent Prentiss." She added and made Emily chuckle.

"I most definitely will, agent Jareau." Emily replied and disappeared behind the door. JJ walked up to her desk and sat on her chair. How in the world was she ever going to get work done now?

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Chapter 13

"I'm pretty sure the two of you know why you're here?" Agent Aaron Hotchner asked as he looked first at Emily and then JJ.

"Would this have anything to do with what Garcia might have told you?" Emily asked just in case it was something else, but from Hotch's expression she knew that this was indeed about what she and JJ thought.

"Precisely." He replied and paused for a moment. Both Emily and JJ held their breaths waiting for whatever reprimand they had coming. "I just hope the two of you know what you're doing." He simply stated and looked at them for confirmation. JJ and Emily waited for continuation, but Hotch didn't say anything else.

"What? No 'You know the policy'?" Emily questioned, surprised. "Or 'The bureau doesn't approve of office romance'? Or 'You are going to run your careers to the ground if you continue this'?"

" You really want a lecture that badly?" Hotch asked, a little amused at Emily's suggestions of what he should have told them.

"No, no, no." She protested. "I was just a little surprised that there wasn't one."

"The truth is, I'm not crazy about people in my team dating, I'll give you that." Hotch explained. "But I have known both of you long enough to know that you are damn good at your jobs regardless of the circumstances. So as long as you don't let you relationship interfere with your work, I am ready to reconcile myself to the fact that you are together." He finished and looked at the two female agents, "Are we clear on that?"

"Absolutely!" Emily agreed.

"Yes, sir." JJ chimed in. "Understood."

"Good." Hotch smiled. "You can go back to work now." He looked at them meaningfully.

"Of course." Emily replied and the two women left Hotch's office. Once they were outside, they both breathed a huge sigh of relief.

"Wow, that was…" Emily started, but she couldn't really find the words.

"Weird." JJ finished for her and Emily laughed.

"Right? It was so much more scary in my mind." Emily admitted. "I really thought he was going to throw a fit or something. "

"I know." JJ agreed. "I was waiting for 'You either end this or look for a new job.' I'm positively shocked." She said and looked Emily in the eyes. "Not that I mind." She grinned as her hand found Emily's, "It feels good to be able to do that."

"I know." Emily smiled back as she pulled JJ in for a quick kiss. "But you did hear the boss, right? We're supposed to get back to work."

"Yeah, yeah, I heard him." JJ sighed and slipped her hand out from Emily's grip to go to her office. "I'll see you later though?"

"Absolutely." Emily promised as she went her own way.

A few hours later JJ was almost done with her paperwork, but she decided to get one last cup of coffee before she went through last couple of folders on her desk. When she got to the coffee machine, she noticed a not so happy Emily Prentiss banging on the top of it. She couldn't help, but smile.

"You know, it works better when you push the button." JJ chuckled and startled Emily a little bit.

"JJ?" She looked at her surprised. "You're still here?"

"Yeah, I'm almost done though." JJ replied. "But what are you doing here? I thought you went home like an hour ago. "

"That was the plan." Emily sighed. "But my stupid car decided that this was the perfect time to just not start. I just got it like a year ago, stupid thing!" She was apparently getting more and more angry. "So I called a cab, but of course it's just my luck that they can't get me one for at least 20 minutes. So I decided to come here and grab myself one more coffee, but of course the coffee maker is not cooperating either." She covered her face with her hands as she sat down on a chair, "What a day!" she sighed as she rested her head on the table.

"OK, first of all, call the cab company back and tell them you no longer need the cab. If you give me 15 minutes, I'll give you a ride."

"Are you sure?"

"Of course I am. Speaking of which, why didn't you come to me right away? You know it's no problem."

"I don't know, I guess I just didn't want to bother you."

"Don't you know by now that you can bother me anytime?" JJ grinned as she made fresh coffee, "Here, take this." She handed Emily the cup. "I wouldn't want you killing our coffee maker in a rage."

"Very funny." Emily chuckled, but gladly accepted the hot beverage, "Thanks."

"I won't be long." JJ promised as she went back to her office.

"Thank you so much." Emily said as JJ parked her car outside of Emily's apartment. "I really appreciate it."

"Anytime." JJ smiled. "So I guess I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Unless you wanna come in?" Emily asked, hope so very clear in her voice. "I could feed you some dinner, so you don't have to cook when you get back to your place."

At first JJ got a little scared at the prospect of being alone with Emily, but she decided that she had been avoiding that for way too long. It was time she just let things happen.

"That actually doesn't sound half bad." JJ accepted the offer.

"Great. Let's go in and I'll see what I have in the fridge."

When they got to the apartment, Emily went into the kitchen to take care of the food and JJ went to the bathroom to freshen up a little bit. When she came out, she heard Emily talking to someone on the phone. She definitely didn't sound happy.

"... Are you kidding me… How am I supposed to get around then? …. Can't you try and pencil me in? … Thank you very much, but I don't think I will have a very nice evening." She replied angrily as she disconnected the call. "Damn!" She shouted and when she turned around she saw JJ standing in the kitchen entrance.

"What's wrong?" JJ asked, a little bit worried.

"Ahhh, it's my stupid garage!" Emily explained with resignation in her voice. "Apparently they can't take my car before Monday, because God forbid they would have to work on a weekend. I offered to pay more money or get the car over there myself, but no, they can't do anything about it before Monday. It's freakin' Wednesday, what am I supposed to do for the rest of the week? Of course they don't care about that, because, why the hell would they, right? It's not like they are stuck without a car for God knows how many days…."

As JJ was listening to Emily ranting and admiring her beauty even while she was expressing her anger towards the workers of a garage, JJ could barely collect her thoughts and realized that the time has finally come.

She almost ran towards Emily, took her face into her hands and kissed her with such intensity and such passion that Emily Prentiss forgot what her name was, let alone why she was so angry about 20 seconds ago.

The mixture of desperation, desire, lust, passion, affection and possibly love that Emily saw in JJ's eyes almost startled her. As did what JJ breathed out a second later. "Make love to me, Emily."

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Chapter 14

Emily glared at JJ wide-eyed, breathing heavily, her lips still swollen from the intense kiss the two of them had just shared.

"What did you just say?" Emily asked, because clearly she couldn't have heard what she thought she heard.

"I said 'Make love to me, Emily'. JJ repeated , this time saying it slower and a little louder.

So Emily did indeed hear it right. JJ just asked her to make love and Emily almost had to pinch herself to make sure that she wasn't dreaming.

But she wasn't. JJ was standing there, her hands on the brunette's face, looking at Emily the way Emily had only dreamt of up until now. The blonde's eyes pleading, almost trying to shout out 'Take me, Emily, take me now.'

"Are you sure?" Emily asked one last time, but she knew should JJ change her mind, it was going to be extremely hard for Emily to recover.

"Absolutely." She heard JJ whisper and she felt the blonde's lips on her. And then JJ's hand on her back. And then JJ's hand reaching for the buttons to Emily's blouse. And then JJ's hand on her cheek. And then she realized her blouse was already on the floor. She looked at JJ who was obviously as aroused as she was and kissed her hard before sliding JJ's sweater over her head, leaving the blonde in just a lacy bra. A very sexy lacy bra that Emily couldn't wait to take off of her girlfriend.

"As much as I love the idea of kitchen sex," Emily said in between kisses, "the bedroom is not that far away." She added as she started leading JJ into the bedroom, stumbling upon every possible piece of furniture that blocked their way.

When they finally got to the bedroom and Emily virtually pushed JJ onto the bed, she couldn't believe that she was finally about to make love to the most beautiful woman in the entire world. A moment she had dreamt about for such a long time. Which is why when she looked into JJ's eyes , she was terrified to find out that there was some sort of hesitation in the blonde's eyes. Yes, JJ was aroused and kissing her with such passion that she didn't know what to do with herself, but JJ was evidently scared and Emily couldn't go any further before finding out what was going on.

"What's wrong, honey?" Emily asked concerned as she broke yet another passionate kiss to look JJ straight in the eyes. "Do you want me to stop? 'Cause we can stop if you don't wanna do this."

"No, I do want this, Emily." JJ replied, but a certain level of anxiety was definitely apparent in her voice. "It's just that I've never, you know…"

"You're not trying to tell me that you're a virgin, are you?" Emily asked with a laugh to lighten up the mood a little bit.

"No." JJ smiled. "But I kind of feel like one." She admitted. And she really did feel like a virgin. Of course technically she wasn't one, but since it kind of was her first time, she couldn't help but feel a little anxious. And there was no point in hiding it, because she knew Emily would be able to figure her out anyway. "You do know what I mean, right?"

"I do." Emily smiled softly and looked at JJ with such affection that for a moment JJ forgot what it really was that she was so scared about. "I take it this is brand new territory for you?" Emily asked, but JJ didn't really have to say anything, Emily could see the answer in her eyes. "We don't have to do anything if you're not comfortable…"

"Oh no!" JJ exclaimed, "'Cause I don't think there is enough water in the whole county for a cold shower I would no doubt have to take if we stopped now." She said as she looked deep into Emily's eyes to let her know that she wanted the brunette as much as the other woman wanted her. "It's just… " She started, but as she felt Emily running her hand gently through her hair, she really did forget what she was scared about in the first place. "I just want you, Emily. I want you so bad that it hurts. And I trust you. So please just take good care of me." She begged as she lifted her head to reach Emily and kiss her softly on the lips while caressing the brunette's cheek with her left hand.

"I will." Emily promised. And she happily did. More than once.

"Holy shit!" JJ exclaimed, still trying to catch her breath, as she laid her head back on the pillow after having what seemed to be the most mind blowing sex she had ever had in her life. "Wow!" She said again, because she was unable to form anything more coherent at that point. "That was just… wow!" She almost laughed at her inability to say anything more descriptive. Usually she had no problem expressing her opinions and articulating her thoughts, but what Emily Prentiss had just done to her took away that ability completely. It took away her ability to think and she could have sworn she forgot how to breathe. She was gasping for air trying to recover as she looked lovingly at the woman responsible for her current state.

"I take it you enjoyed your first time with the member of the same sex?" Emily grinned as she propped her head to be able to look at JJ's face.

"I think I made that somewhat clear earlier." JJ pointed out and Emily couldn't help but laugh.

"That you did." She placed a kiss on the blonde's lips. "Not that I minded."

"Emily…" JJ started as she felt Emily's lips on her neck.

"Yeah?" Emily answered as she lifted her head to be able look JJ in the eyes. "What is it?"

"You do know that for me it wasn't just about seeing what it's like with a woman, right?" JJ desperately needed Emily to understand that, "It wasn't about experimenting or sex with a woman just for the heck of it… It was about sex with you. I'd wanted you for such a long time and yes I was scared a little, but damn I have no idea what I was so scared about." She smiled as she placed a soft kiss on Emily's lips. "It was unbelievable." She finished, but Emily noticed that there was still something bothering her.

"Are you OK?" Emily asked softly as she caressed JJ's cheek. "You seem… worried about something?"

For a moment JJ considered trying to hide her little secret, but something told her that she could talk to Emily about it.

"I was wondering…" She started, still not sure how exactly to ask the question.

"Wondering what?" Emily questioned, becoming more and more scared that she had done something to upset JJ.

"Was it…" Emily could see JJ taking a deep breath. "Was it good for you too?"

At first it didn't really register with Emily what JJ was asking her, but when it hit her, she couldn't believe JJ would worry about that.

'You mean… the sex?" Emily asked, trying to make sure that she understood correctly.

"Yes the sex!" JJ confirmed. "Was it good for you? Did I… Did I do everything right? Did you…" She didn't manage to finish as she felt Emily's lips on hers shutting her up.

"You should really have more faith in your own abilities, Jennifer Jareau." Emily told her as she broke the kiss for a moment.

"How can I when I never…" Again, JJ felt Emily's lips on hers when she tried to speak.

"You," Kiss, "Were," Kiss, "Absolutely," Kiss, "Amazing." Emily took JJ's hand into hers and let their fingers intertwine, "Definitely the best I ever had." Emily told her and she wasn't lying. Sex with Jennifer Jareau was definitely the most mind blowing experience of her life. And it wasn't just about the orgasms, not that Emily had anything to complain about in that department, but more about the intensity of everything that she was feeling for the blonde. She was more sure than ever that the level of pleasure during sex is directly connected to the person you're with. And she knew that no one, absolutely no one, could give her more pleasure than JJ. The way the blonde looked at her with those sapphire eyes, the way she touched her, slightly clumsily, yet knowing exactly which buttons to push to drive Emily insane. She had never experienced anything like this in her life and she hoped the experience was equally good for JJ as well.

Emily rested her head on JJ's chest as she felt the blonde put her right arm around the her. JJ's left hand was still joined with Emily's, their fingers still intertwined. And when Emily felt JJ's hand caress her bare shoulder, she shivered and she came to a conclusion that this is what heaven must feel like.

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Chapter 15

Emily awoke to the sunlight desperately trying to find its way into the bedroom through the blinds. When she opened her eyes, she saw what she had dreaded the most – the other side of the bed was empty. As she reminisced about the events of the previous night, for a moment she wondered if maybe everything was just a dream. But as she looked around the room and saw scattered pieces of her clothing, she knew that it wasn't just a dream. It was the most amazing experience of her life, but maybe it was too much for JJ to handle. Maybe she expected too much of the blonde by wanting her to just accept the fact that she was supposed to be having sex with a woman now. Maybe it was just too soon, maybe she shouldn't have let this happen… What if she destroyed everything by giving in to her feelings.

Suddenly her thoughts got interrupted by the sound of the door opening. When she looked up, she was greeted by the most beautiful sight ever – JJ wearing her T-shirt and carrying a tray of food.

"You're awake." JJ said excitedly. "Good. I've missed you, but I didn't have the heart to wake you up. You looked so peaceful." She added as she remembered how absolutely beautiful sleeping Emily Prentiss looked.

"I thought you left." Emily said after a while, clearly a bit surprised by the fact that JJ was still there, looking at the blonde like she was some sort of a miracle. Emily's expression was that of enormous relief and she couldn't help being extremely happy.

"I guess you don't know me all that well." JJ grinned as she got back into bed and placed the tray in front of Emily. "I'm not one to kiss and leave." She smiled and it made her heart beat faster when she saw a huge smile spread across Emily's face. "Now," she moved a little closer to the brunette, "let me give you a proper morning greeting." She leaned in and kissed Emily gently. "Good morning."

"Good indeed." Emily said in between kisses. "Very good." She added as she pulled JJ in for a more passionate kiss. But before things managed to become more heated, she felt something with her leg and remembered the food. "You made breakfast?" She asked as she slowly broke the kiss and shifted her sight to the food in front of them.

"Yeah, well, when I woke up, you were still out and I figured making breakfast would make time go faster." JJ explained, "Plus, since we kind of forgot about food last night, " JJ couldn't stop from blushing at the memory of what had happened between them the previous night. "I just simply got hungry." She smiled as she lifted the tray and placed it closer to them, so they could eat. "I hope you don't mind."

"Of course I don't." Emily smiled as she helped herself to a roll and some jam.

"Oh and I borrowed one of your shirts, I hope that's OK."

"It most certainly is." Emily grinned. "You look damn sexy in it too." She added. "Not that you don't otherwise." She looked at JJ passionately, "But there is definitely something about seeing you in a piece of my clothing."

"Well if you like it so much, I can do it more often." JJ proposed with a smile.

"By all means, please do. Anytime." Emily told her as she took another bite of the roll.

"I'll keep that in mind." JJ promised as she decided to focus on the food for a moment, because she really was not lying when she said she was hungry.

About twenty minutes later the women were done with their breakfast and Emily took the tray back to the kitchen. When she came back to the bedroom, she was pleased to find JJ still in bed and still wearing her T-shirt.

"Please tell me that we don't have to go to work today." Emily sighed as she sat down on the bed next to JJ. The prospect of leaving their perfect little love nest did not sit well with her.

"We should only be so lucky." JJ said with a grimace on her face. "But we do have about an hour before we have to leave. That's better than nothing."

"I guess so." Emily agreed, "In that case I am going to go take a shower." Emily stood up, took a towel from her closet and headed for the bathroom. Before she went in, she turned towards JJ and said, "You can either stay in bed… or you can be environment-friendly and help me save water." Emily grinned and disappeared inside the bathroom. It took JJ about two seconds to decide what she wanted to do. After all, she did feel very strongly about environment protection.

It wasn't the first time Emily Prentiss had seen Jennifer Jareau in nothing but a towel, but it was the first time she knew she could unwrap the towel from around JJ's body if she wished to. That gave her a lot of comfort. It took a lot of self-control not to do that now, but she knew they had to get to work and as pleasurable as it for sure would have been to rid JJ of the only piece of 'clothing' she had on, Emily just didn't have enough strength to do that and then not follow up with another session of mind blowing sex. So for now she decided to let JJ be, but knew that next time JJ wouldn't be that lucky.

"What?" JJ asked, as she realized Emily was looking at her intently.

"Nothing." Emily grinned. "I was just thinking how sexy you are and how I can't wait to have my way with you again."

"Don't tell me things like that right before we have to go to work." JJ begged. "You're going to make me crazy."

"I already am crazy, for you." Emily pulled JJ in for a kiss. "And now go get dressed before I lose the last shreds of self-control I still have left."

"Your wish is my command." JJ grinned. "Though there is one little problem." She stated after a moment.

"Which is?"

"I don't have any clean clothes."

"That problem we can easily fix." Emily smiled. "Just borrow whatever you want."

"That is oh so nice of you." JJ placed a soft kiss on Emily's lips. "Your hospitality shall be rewarded."

"I sure hope so." Emily looked at JJ meaningfully. "You know where the closet is."

About 15 minutes later they were almost ready to leave for work, but JJ was still running around the apartment trying to find her shoe. That was one piece of wardrobe she unfortunately couldn't borrow from Emily.

"Have you checked under the bed?" Emily called out from the living room, knowing that JJ was still in the bedroom.

"I have, it's not there."

"The bathroom?" Emily asked again, making her way from the living room to the bedroom trying to retrace their steps from last night.

"Why would it be in the bathroom?" JJ asked confused.

"I don't know." Emily laughed. "But it's gotta be somewhere." Emily sighed. "Got it!" She shouted after a moment when she found JJ's shoe right behind the bedroom door. She walked into the bedroom triumphantly holding up the shoe in her right hand.

"I love you." JJ screamed happily as she took the shoe from Emily. When she did she realized what words exactly had just escaped her mouth.

"You'd better." Emily grinned as she decided not to make too much of JJ's confession, because clearly JJ meant it as 'I love you for finding my shoe.'

"No, seriously, Em." JJ knew she was ready to tell Emily what she knew in her heart with absolute certainty. She took the brunette's hand in hers and looked into her eyes. "I love you. As in I'm desperately, hopelessly in love with you. I guess I have been for a while now, but I just never could figure out my feelings for you. What I felt for you scared the hell out of me, but I know now that it's the most amazing thing ever. I love you, Emily Prentiss. With everything that I am." She finished her confession, her heart pounding, her mind wondering if maybe Emily wasn't ready to hear it just yet. But she needed to tell her. She needed her to know.

For a moment she looked at Emily with her heart still beating fast, her hand sweating a little, waiting for whatever Emily's reaction would be.

"God, JJ, I love you so much." Emily's lips crashed onto JJ's, with passion only fueled by what JJ had just confessed. When they finally broke apart, Emily continued. "I have never felt anything like that for anyone. You drive me absolutely insane, Jennifer Jareau. I can't even begin to describe what I feel for you, but I do know one thing – I love you with every fiber of my being." She finished as she couldn't help but find JJ's lips with hers again. JJ held on to her tight and kissed her back like her life depended on it.

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Chapter 16

"Hey, JJ." She heard Hotch's voice coming into her office from outside and she saw the door open.

"Yeah?"

"Did Garcia ever give you that printout I asked for?" He asked coming into the office. "I asked her to bring it to me, but I was out, so I thought maybe she brought them to you?"

"No, she didn't."

"Can you go down and hurry her? She's not answering her cell and I need that printout like right now." Hotch asked.

"Sure, no problem. I need to stretch my muscles a bit anyway." JJ smiled and left her office right after Hotch. He went his way and JJ headed for Garcia's little sanctuary.

When she got there and opened the door, Garcia was busy typing something on the keyboard, but raised her head when she heard someone coming in.

"Hey, Garcia, Hotch was wondering…" JJ started, but Garcia wouldn't let her finish.

"Oh my God, you had sex!" She exclaimed happily as she looked at JJ who started to say something, but Garcia wouldn't even let her open her mouth. "Don't even try and deny it." She grinned, "I know these things."

"I'm not gonna deny it." JJ answered, because she knew there was absolutely no point anyway. Garcia was always right about those things. And JJ couldn't control her blushing at the memory of the night she had spent with Emily. She looked at Garcia, who was grinning uncontrollably.

"Now I haven't seen Emily today, but I'm guessing she gives away the same vibe?" Garcia asked, although she was pretty sure she already knew the answer to that question. JJ couldn't stop the stupid grin spreading across her face. She had never been too good at hiding her feelings, especially such intense feelings that she had for Emily.

"I want details!" Garcia looked at JJ with an expression that clearly said 'Spill!' But just like JJ wasn't one to kiss and leave, she also wasn't one to kiss and tell. At least not yet. She suddenly remembered the reason she was in Garcia's office in the first place.

"Don't distract me!" JJ asked. "I'm just here to get some printout for Hotch."

"Oh, that's right." Garcia said and handed JJ a stack of papers. "Here you go."

"Thanks.I have to get it to Hotch ASAP."

"But don't think I won't want to hear all about you and Emily."

"Not from me." JJ smiled and turned to leave.

"Fine, then, I'll get Emily to tell me." Garcia grinned. "Either way, I will know."

"Whatever."

"One more question." Garcia added after a moment. "I'm assuming that now when I book you guys rooms I can book you a double bed?"

"Goodbye Garcia." JJ waved to her with the printout held up above her head as she was leaving the analyst's office.

"I can't believe that they're not done with my car yet!" Emily sighed as she was getting into JJ's car for the fourth or fifth time that week.

"I'm sorry about your car, but I'm not sorry that you get to spend another night at my place." JJ grinned as she started the engine.

"That I'm not sorry about either." Emily gave her JJ a quick kiss before they drove off.

About half an hour later they were inside JJ's apartment getting ready for dinner. Emily was wearing her after work outfit consisting of her old jeans and a T-shirt and she really was amazed at how comfortable she felt around JJ or in her apartment. Being with JJ definitely felt like home to Emily, something she really had no idea would happen. She had always known that her and JJ were going to be perfect together, but it still astonished her sometimes how right being with the liaison really felt. So as Emily was standing in JJ's kitchen, watching the blonde stir pasta in the pot, Emily Prentiss thought that she could definitely get used to this.

"So what sauce do you want with that?" JJ asked. "Bolognese or Carbonara?"

"Little Italian, aren't we?" Emily asked with a smile as she walked up to JJ and put her hands around JJ's waist as she stood right behind her. "Smells good." She added as she placed a gentle kiss on JJ's neck.

"Yes, it does." JJ replied, not referring to the food though. She could smell the traces of Emily's perfume and it was driving her absolutely insane, especially that Emily tightened her grip around the blonde's waist. "Mmm, you feel nice." JJ said softly after a moment when she felt another warm kiss on her neck, "This feels nice."

"I was just thinking the same thing." Emily agreed as she turned JJ around to give her a proper kiss on the lips. JJ moaned when she felt Emily's hungry lips on hers. And when Emily's hand ended up on JJ's bare back under her blouse, JJ knew she was about to lose it. So she pulled away from Emily's embrace and looked at her meaningfully, "Dinner first."

"Must you be so cruel to me, Jennifer Jareau?" Emily asked with a smile as she managed to steal one last kiss from JJ.

"I promise your patience will be rewarded." JJ smirked as she opened the cupboard to take out the sauces.

"I'm certainly counting on it." Emily raised her eyebrows as she stepped away from JJ to give her some space, so she could finish making dinner. She realized that she indeed was a little hungry, but she was mostly looking forward to what was supposed to happen after dinner. After all, JJ owed her and she was definitely planning on collecting.

JJ awoke to the feel of something hard under her ribs and it took her a moment to realize that this something hard was Emily's hand. JJ had her back turned to Emily and she could feel Emily's breath on her neck. She smiled to herself as she thought that this was an absolutely perfect way to wake up. She could definitely get used to this.

When JJ turned around to face Emily, she realized that the brunette was no longer asleep.

"Morning." Emily said smiling as she gently kissed her lover on the lips, "Did you sleep well?"

"Yes." JJ answered as she kissed her back. "Not that I got that much sleep anyway." She added grinning, as she pulled Emily closer to her. "And it's all your fault." She said trying to sound mad, but of course she couldn't help but grin.

"I didn't hear you complaining." Emily smiled as she left a trace of small kisses on JJ's neck, "Unless I misinterpreted the… uhm… sounds that you were making." Emily laughed as she rolled JJ over so that the blonde was now on top of her.

"Don't worry." JJ kissed her passionately. "I think your interpretation was fairly accurate."

"Of course it was." Emily ran her hand through JJ's hair and caressed the blonde's neck.

"Jennifer?" They were suddenly startled by a voice coming from the bedroom door. JJ looked around and looked at the person standing there with sheer horror in her eyes.

"Mom?"

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Chapter 17

"Oh my God…" Was all Mrs. Jareau managed to say before she stormed off into the hall.

"Shit!" JJ hit her hand on the pillow as she stood up and followed her mother into the living room, grabbing a robe on her way out of the bedroom.

Emily sighed looked up at the ceiling. This was not going to be pretty.

"What are you doing here?" JJ asked looking at her mother suspiciously, "How did you even get in here?"

"You gave me a key a while ago, don't you remember?" Mrs. Jareau looked at her daughter still shocked. "Besides, don't change the subject!" She demanded.

"Change the subject?" JJ asked confused. "I didn't even know we had a subject, so how can I be changing it?"

"Oh you know what I'm talking about." Mrs. Jareau looked at JJ ice cold, but JJ didn't react. "Please tell me I did not just walk in on you making out with another woman? In bed, no less." Mrs. Jareau almost begged.

"Mom…" JJ tried to say something, but when she saw the expression on her mother's face, she forgot what she was about to say.

"What exactly are you thinking, Jennifer? Is that why you left home? To do this?" JJ could hear the shock and disappointment in her mother's voice.

"I left home to go to college, mom. You know that!" JJ decided that she wasn't going to let her mother get to her, "And to have a career with the FBI."

"Yes, and it was bad enough that you left, but now I find out that you're… "Mrs. Jareau took a deep breath, "I can't even say it."

"Then don't." JJ shouted. "Don't say it if it scares you that much. But it doesn't make it untrue." JJ waited for some sort of reaction from her mother, but it never came, so she continued. "And I'm sorry I never told you, I really am. But I am not going to apologize for living my life the way I want. I'm sorry if this is not what you have pictured for me, mom."

"I can't believe I'm hearing this, Jennifer." Mrs. Jareau was terrified. "Please tell me that this is some sort of a phase or something. Or that you got drunk and you have no idea how you ended up with that woman in your bed."

"That woman," JJ looked at her mother meaningfully, "is Emily. And I happen to be in love with her. So no, mom, I am not drunk and this is not a phase. This is who I am."

"No it's not!" Mrs. Jareau insisted. "This is not how I raised you, Jennifer!"

"This has nothing to do with it, mom."

"I must have done something wrong." Mrs. Jareau started wondering as she kept pacing nervously around the living room. "Where did I go wrong?" She looked at JJ with desperation in her eyes.

"You didn't go wrong anywhere." JJ spoke calmly as she looked her mother in the eye. "It doesn't work that way, mom." JJ took another deep breath, "Why can't you just be happy for me? Happy that I have made a good life for myself, I have a job that I enjoy and I have found someone who loves me and who I love back. Isn't that what you always wanted for me?" JJ asked with tears in her eyes.

"By someone you mean her?" Mrs. Jareau motioned in the direction of the bedroom.

"Yes I mean her! And her name is Emily."

"I'm sorry, Jennifer, but I can't deal with it right now. I can't." Mrs. Jareau said. "And I can't be here." She added as she headed out.

"Why are you here? Where are you going?" JJ called after her, but all she heard was the door slamming. She stayed in the middle of her living room, teary-eyed.

"I take it you haven't told your mom about… us?" Emily's voice startled JJ as she was wiping the tears that were now falling on her cheeks. She was almost scared to turn around and face Emily, but she couldn't stop the tears from falling.

"I'm sorry." JJ said through tears, her back still turned, so she wouldn't have to look at Emily. "I should have told her."

Emily's heart broke as she heard the quilt in JJ's tearful voice. For a moment she wondered what it was that JJ was expecting her to do, but finally she couldn't take it any longer and walked up to the blonde and wrapped her hands around her.

"It's OK." Emily said as she rested her head on JJ's shoulder and placed her hands on JJ's. She could feel the blonde trembling in her arms.

"But I should have told her!" JJ insisted as she finally turned around to face Emily. "I know I should have. It's not like this thing with us happened yesterday." She took a deep breath. "I just… I didn't know how to tell her."

"It's OK." Emily repeated as she took JJ's hands in hers and looked into her eyes, "I know how hard it must be for you. I still remember when I told my mom and trust me, it wasn't something you wanted to be around for." She smiled gently.

"But it's different. You were still a kid then, but I'm a grown woman." JJ sighed. "I am an FBI agent and I carry a gun, yet I was scared to tell me mommy that I'm in love with another woman." JJ laughed, "This is ridiculous! I should have been able to tell her."

"Well now she knows." Emily pointed out. "And even if she didn't, I know you would have told her on your own time."

"I would have." JJ agreed, "I just don't want you to think that I'm ashamed or something. It's just really hard for me to talk to my parents about these things."

"I know." Emily said in a soothing voice as she wrapped her arms around JJ again and softly caressed the back of the blonde's head. JJ put her arms around Emily's neck and buried herself in Emily's shoulders. After a moment she pulled away to be able to look Emily in the eyes.

"You do know that I love you, though, right?" She asked desperately needed reassurance that Emily knew how much she loved her. "Because I do. I love you so much that sometimes it scares me, because I never thought loving someone this much was possible. And the last thing I would ever, ever want to do is hurt you. You have to know that." JJ said and looked at Emily with pleading eyes. And it killed her to see how much JJ was beating herself up over this.

"I know that." She said softly as she wiped away the tears rolling on JJ's face, "I know that you love me. I love you too. And I don't want you to do anything that you're not ready for." She looked at JJ affectionately. "So if you're not ready to talk to your parents about us, don't. Wait until you're ready." Emily smiled and JJ kept trying to come up with a reason what in the world she did to deserve someone like Emily in her life. Whatever it was, she must have done it right.

"Thank you." She whispered, her eyes still teary and her voice still a little shaky. "What did I ever do to deserve you?" She cupped Emily's face with her hands and kissed her softly. "I love you."

"So you keep saying." Emily grinned as she kissed JJ back, tasting the tears that fell onto the blonde's lips. JJ was still shivering a and she suddenly felt so vulnerable in Emily's arms. But when she felt Emily's tongue in her mouth and Emily's hand on the strap of her robe, the vulnerability got replaced by feelings of a whole different kind.

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Chapter 18

JJ had been trying to contact her mother the entire day, but her mother wouldn't pick up or the call would go straight to voicemail. It was around 7pm and both her and Emily had just got back home from work. They had a case the next day in the morning, so the team had the evening to prepare. JJ was now sitting in the kitchen sipping a cup of coffee while Emily had gone to pack.

JJ dialed her mother's number again, but just like the other times, it went straight to voicemail.

"Hi mom, it's me again." JJ started, her voice slightly tired and a little desperate. "If you don't want to talk about what you saw, that's fine, I get it, but can you please just call me and tell me that you're OK. I called dad and he thinks you're here, which you are not, so please stop acting like you're five and call one of us." JJ disconnected the call, frustrated at the way her mother was acting. "Damn it." She sighed as she hit the table with her fist.

"Ouch, I wouldn't want to be that table now." JJ heard Emily's voice coming from the hall and saw Emily standing at the door. "Everything OK?" Emily asked slightly worried.

"It's my mother." JJ explained with an obvious sadness in her voice. "She won't take my calls, so I don't even know where she is or if she's OK. She didn't come home, so I have no idea what the hell she's doing." JJ exclaimed angrily. "I get that she's not crazy about me right now, but she's acting like I stopped caring about just because I'm no longer the perfect image of me that she had in mind." JJ was about to hit the table for the second time, but Emily stopped her, worried that she might actually hurt herself.

"Hey, hey, hey, easy there." Emily put her own hand between JJ's fist and the table preventing the blonde from taking another blow to the poor piece of furniture. "I know it's your table, so technically you should feel free to do whatever you want with it, but not when it means breaking your own bones on it." Emily looked at JJ meaningfully and JJ couldn't help but laugh.

"Sorry." JJ sighed. "But she's driving me insane."

"I know, I know." Emily spoke, affection for JJ so apparent on her face. "I'm sure your mom is fine, she's just having a hard time… digesting the revelations. Don't worry about her."

"You're probably right." JJ agreed, but Emily could see that she was still concerned. "I just wish she would call me, you know? I left like five or six messages, and she's acting like she's trying to punish me by not calling me back. And I don't even think I did anything wrong."

"Well she thinks you did."

"Well I don't care what she thinks!" JJ shouted, becoming more and more enraged at her mother.

"You know that's not true." Emily said softly, maybe even too softly, and looked at JJ with a meaningful expression. She knew that no matter what JJ said she did and would always care what her parents thought. That was just the way she operated and Emily would never ask her to stop respecting her parents.

"No, it's not." JJ agreed, surprised at how well Emily Prentiss really knew her. She remained silent for a moment and when she looked at the brunette, she suddenly saw something strange in her eyes, some sort of anxiety or worry. "What is it, Emily?"

"What?" Emily asked a little confused, not fully realizing that JJ could read her like a book as well.

"Something's wrong. What is it?" JJ asked more and more concerned, because whatever it was that manifested itself in Emily's eyes, JJ knew she didn't like it. JJ could see that Emily was about to brush it off and maybe change the subject, so she made sure she was looking the brunette straight in the eyes and asked. "Please tell me."

And Emily knew that she couldn't try to hide it, because JJ would know that something was wrong. "I just keep thinking about you and your mom and how you really care about what she thinks… And I know this is probably going to sound selfish and I'm sorry, but I keep wondering what if your mom never accepts this? What if she tells you to choose or tries to make you straight?"

"Tries to make me straight?" JJ didn't quite understand what Emily was saying. "How would that even work?"

"Or are you even sure that you're not straight?" Emily asked, the panic in her voice more and more apparent. It almost scared JJ and she honestly didn't know how to respond to that. "Maybe your mom will make you see that really you are straight and this with us was just… oh well, everybody makes mistakes, right? You know, this is all exciting now and all, but once the new wears off, you're gonna realize that this isn't really what you want or…"

"Are you even hearing yourself?" JJ cut her short as soon as she realized where Emily was going with this. She didn't know if she was more offended by Emily for thinking like this or if she felt sorry for her. She wanted to slap and hug her at the same time. "Where is this coming from? And by the way, nice going referring to yourself as the new!" JJ noted, but Emily clearly wasn't amused.

"This is not funny, JJ!" Emily almost shouted.

"Yeah, it kind of is." JJ insisted. "It is funny that after everything that has happened between us, after everything that we have shared, you would doubt me and my feelings for you." JJ did understand where Emily's insecurities might be coming from, but she was also a little hurt by her lover's statements and questions. "And whether I said it or not, I thought you could tell. I thought you could see it in my eyes how much I love you." JJ's eyes were becoming full of tears, as she couldn't believe Emily would not feel the love JJ had for her. "We made love just this morning and you're standing here telling me that you think I don't know what I'm doing or that I'm confused and my mother is gonna make me stop loving you or make me straight? And since when are labels so important to you anyway? Have I ever even told you that I was gay? It never mattered, because you knew what I feel and you knew how much I love you. I know you did. And for you to stand here and accuse me of… I don't even know what it is exactly that you're accusing me of… I just… I can't believe you, Emily…" And with that JJ stormed out of the kitchen, leaving a shocked Emily inside.

Good job, Prentiss, she thought as JJ's kitchen table suffered yet another blow, this time from the other agent.

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Chapter 19

When Emily heard JJ slam the door to her bedroom, she knew things were not looking pretty for her. Why did she have to say this much? Why did she have to phrase her sentences the way she did? What the hell was wrong with her? JJ was right. She should have known better. And she did. Because she could see JJ's love for her every time she looked into her eyes. Every time they touched, every time they made love, she could see how completely in love JJ was with her. So why couldn't she trust that and just keep her mouth shut? Why oh why did she have to go accusing JJ of playing her or not treating her seriously? Just because she was scared of JJ's parents not accepting the relationship. But to go from that to telling JJ what she did… Oh Emily Prentiss was definitely mad at herself, but since she couldn't really take back what she said, she decided she needed to beg JJ for forgiveness.

When she got to the bedroom, the door was closed. She gently placed her hand on the doorknob, but before she could turn it, she heard JJ's voice from inside the room, "Don't you even dare come in." Emily couldn't help but smile at how easily JJ could sense her presence even when she was so mad at her.

"JJ, please." Emily begged, still not turning the doorknob.

"No, go find yourself someone who isn't going to be turned straight by their mother!" JJ shot back angry and Emily just couldn't wait any longer to see JJ and explain. So she opened the door and went into the room. "I told you not to come in." JJ was still angry and Emily hated herself for hurting the blonde that way. JJ was now sitting on the bed, with her face buried in her hands, refusing to look at the brunette.

For a moment Emily just stood there, keeping her distance, trying to come up with something to say, but nothing that made sense came to mind, so she just whispered, "I'm sorry."

"You should be." JJ said firmly, her face still in her hands. After another moment of silence, she looked up at Emily. "Do you really think I'm just going to wake up one day and decide that I kind of liked it better when I was straight?" She asked, her voice shaking, tears in her eyes.

"Of course not!" Emily insisted. And she really didn't. She knew the depth of JJ's feelings for her and why in the world she decided to question that was beyond her. So stupid!

"Because if this is how you really feel… If you look at me and you are scared that I'm not all in, then I must have been doing something wrong…"

"You have done nothing wrong, JJ, believe me." Emily assured her, feeling her own tears making their way down her cheeks now. "This was all me. Me being stupid and insecure and accusing you of things that are not there. I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." Emily now sat down on the bed next to JJ and took the blonde's hand in hers. JJ didn't protest, which Emily took as a good sign.

"I just don't understand." JJ said after a moment, helplessness in her voice. "I thought you knew…"

"I do know, JJ, I do." Emily sighed deeply as she started gently stroking JJ's hand. "I don't know what came over me, I really don't. I just… I freaked out and I'm really sorry." Emily said and JJ turned her head to face the brunette now. Emily continued her apology. "I didn't mean to imply that I don't trust you or your feelings, because I do. I really do. I've never trusted anybody with my heart the way I trust you. So please believe me when I tell you that I don't doubt your feelings for me, not for a second." She looked into JJ's eyes and gently wiped the tears from the blonde's face. "I don't know what in the world possessed me to say what I said and trust me, I hate myself for that enough for the both of us." She added and JJ couldn't help but smile.

"I don't hate you." She promised, although she figured Emily had to know at least that. "I just… It just hurt when you said all those things, because I thought I've never given you a reason to feel like I wasn't sure about this… About us. Because I'm sure, Emily. Like I've never been sure of anything in my entire life." She took Emily's face in her hands and continued. "I. Love. You." She said enunciating every single word. "I love you and nothing and no one can ever make me stop. Ever. OK?" She asked with desperation in her voice and as she looked into Emily's eyes, she knew the answer.

"OK." Emily confirmed. She smiled softly as she covered JJ's hands with hers. "I'm sorry I freaked out. I guess the thought of losing you…"

Emily didn't manage to say anything else as JJ closed the already small gap between their lips. The kiss was gentle and delicate, yet sent shivers through their bodies. When JJ broke the kiss, she looked at Emily with a pounding heart and promised her, "You are not going to lose me, Emily. I am yours, forever, and nothing can change that. Nothing." She repeated as she crashed her lips onto Emily's again, this time pressing them hard, desperate for physical contact with the brunette. She needed to show her, she needed Emily to know how much she loved her and as she felt Emily's tongue seeking entry into her mouth, it was enough for her to know that Emily needed it too. As their tongues danced together, their hands were making slightly uncontrollable trips up and down each other's bodies. Clothes were getting lost in the process and the two women were desperate to learn all about each other's bodies again, as if the conversation they had just had took something from them. JJ desperate to prove to Emily how much she loved her and Emily desperate to prove to JJ that she really did believe her and that she had no more doubts about the liaison's feelings. She couldn't with the way JJ was looking at her right now.

"I love you, you know that, right?" Emily managed to whisper, her breathing getting shallow as she felt JJ's hands and lips in places that only JJ was allowed to touch.

"I know." JJ breathed out. "And now shut up and let me show you how not straight I really am."

Emily chuckled and thought to herself that accusing JJ of being straight was certainly beneficial in some respects. Although it wasn't long until Emily was no longer able to form any thoughts in her head…

THE END

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