Title: Undisclosed Desires
Author: icky_crane
Rating: PG
Spoilers/Warnings: Starts out a bit angstish, but it has a happy ending, promise :)
Summary: Garcia knows something you don't.
Disclaimer: Pure, Ungodly, Fiction.
Author's Note: Prompt by hpw5011 :Recently I've discovered a really awesome song called "Undisclosed Desires" by Muse. The lyrics totally describe the boys. So what i'm trying to say is that I want a story that somehow incorporate that song. You might wanna listen to the song first, or just google the lyrics if you don't like Muse. *I did my best, sweetie.* <333

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I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart


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"Hey, hey, hey! Who said you could change the radio?" Morgan gripes from his place in the kitchen. Reid, on the other hand, couldn't be bothered. While Muse might not touch base with the young geniuses normal taste in music, this song was a good one in his opinion.

It wasn't Reid's fault that Morgan had permanently kicked him out of their kitchen after his breakfast fiasco. You set one persons shirt on fire, and suddenly the whole world's collapsing on itself. Other than that, things were looking up for the both of them.


It had been a long struggle this past month, tiring to say the least...

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"And what, Reid? What do you want from me?" Morgan hollered at Reid as the younger male ambled on towards home, refusing to admit to himself, let alone to anyone else, that his feelings had been...well, had been crushed. Two years Reid had spent loving him, hiding their relationship for him, pretending that 'they' didn't exist. Reid chewed on his full bottom lip, halting his quick pace to face the one person who meant more to him than anyone else.

"Nothing, Morgan. I want absolutely nothing from you, ever." The bitterness and the hurt came pouring out, and Reid made no attempt to hide it. A person can't live two lives, Morgan was no exception to that rule. "It was just lunch."

"I don't care."

"She lost her brother, Spence!"

"And you're just known for consoling each and every victim we come across, Morgan. Please, spare me your lies." Even with the excruciating heat, Reid felt extremely cold and increasingly distant, and so repulsed. Morgan would rather have rumors of him and a past victim floating around then the actual truth, but what was true anymore? Reid didn't know.

Morgan's hand reached out to touch him, but Reid rejected the advance. All Reid could think of was how his hands had been on her, one way or another, and he just couldn't do it anymore. He couldn't.

"Don't, just don't," Reid speaks softly, and he turns back around and walks off, Morgan never once trying to stop him. That night, Reid spent wide awake in bed, tossing and turning.

"You okay, Reid? You look tired," Prentiss comments early the next morning, general concern etched across her features. Spencer smiles softly, glad someone cared enough about him when he, himself, could not. "Yeah, uh, just up all night. I got a new book on the study of child psychology and the effects of..."

"Okay, Reid. I get it." Emily smiles briefly before turning back to her work. Spencer didn't have to look up in order to know that Derek had arrived, the other males cologne etched permanently in Spencer's senses forever.

"Morning, guys," JJ greets warmly, handing a mug of coffee to Emily as the other woman takes it gratefully. "It looked like you were drowning there, thought you could used a cup."

"Thanks," Emily says, eyes lighting up at the thoughtful gesture.

"You're later than usual, Morgan. You alright?" JJ questions, eyebrows raised slightly as she studies his person. "Yeah, just didn't get much sleep last night."

"You and Reid both," Emily chimes in, and Spencer physically cringes. For the next several hours Spencer dives into his work with little to no breaks in between. About eight hours in, Spencer has to take a bathroom break. After he's finished, he moves to wash his hands, the door opening as Derek appears. The elder agent does not go to use one of the stalls, instead he stands behind Spencer, arms crossed diligently over his chest.

"Can I help you, or are you just going to stand there?" Reid inquires, shutting off the running water, and moving toward the paper dispenser. "I didn't sleep and ounce, Spence. I spent the whole night thinking about you, and how I've mistreated you."

"I told you I didn't want anything from you, Derek. That includes an explanation."

"Yeah, well, I want a lot from you," he says sternly, dark eyes capturing Spencer's as he just stands there idly, hands fidgeting in his sweater vest.

"I want to take you out to dinner, Spence. I want to introduce you to my family, and I want you to know that I love you."

"But you can't do that can you, Derek? You never will." With that, Spencer leaves and it's the hardest thing he has ever had to do.


Two weeks later and Spencer is contemplating not coming into work, but he knows that his absence would only cause more suspicion. June 20th, their two year marker.

Two years didn't mean much, not compared to the five Spencer had spent loving him. The agent drops his satchel on his desk without a care, and hurried to the coffee. While he pours himself a fresh brew, he can hear a slight ruckus coming from out of the bullpen. Spencer steps out to see Emily, JJ, and even Garcia huddled around his desk, Morgan handing out what Spencer could only guess were cupcakes.

"What are you doing?" Reid questions, clearing a path between the girls as one lone yellow and blue striped cupcake adorned his desk.

"Celebrating," Morgan answers brightly, a genuine smile to his lips as he hands Spencer his cupcake, not before placing a soft kiss to the surprised agents lips.

"Happy two years, Spence."

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"You gonna dance with me, or what?" Morgan questions, and only he could cause a smile that Reid had never experienced before to appear. The worst was over now, and in all good conscious, Spencer could honestly believe that they could get over anything that stood in their way as long as they were willing to not give up. And as Morgan's arm's wrap comfortingly around Spencer's waist and Spencer's arm's wrap securely around his neck, forehead's touching as their noses brush together, eyes full of love and devotion, lips full of understanding...they were never giving up.

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I know you suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied

Soothe me
I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You take your lovers that you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine

Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

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