Title: His Own Free Will
By: angstytimelord
Pairing: Hannibal Lecter/Will Graham
Fandom: Hannibal
Rating: PG-13
Table: 1drabble
Prompt: 32, Cherry
Author's Note: Sequel to "Neither Use Nor Ornament."
Disclaimer: This is entirely a product of my own imagination, and I make no profit from it. I do not own the lovely Hannibal Lecter or Will Graham, unfortunately, just borrowing them for a while. Please do not sue.
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Had he made a terrible mistake by giving himself to Hannibal?Will bit his lip as he asked himself the question, not sure that he wanted to delve more deeply into his reasons for what he'd done. He wasn't sure they did him any credit.
He had been with Hannibal because he'd wanted to be, hadn't he? After all, it wasn't as though he'd been forced into it. Hannibal hadn't coerced him in any way.
No, he'd gone into it with his eyes wide open, and of his own free will. There had been nothing pushing him into the act, and he hadn't felt that he was talked into it. What had taken place between them had been his own choice. He had asked for it; he'd been the one to go to Hannibal.
He was the one who'd asked for this, so he was the one who should suffer the consequences, right? He was the one who should deal with the second thoughts and worries.
Which was just what he was doing, Will told himself with a soft sigh. He felt like a fool for having instigated the whole thing; he had, as usual, jumped in head first without looking.
Giving Hannibal his cherry hadn't been a spur of the moment decision; he'd been thinking about it for weeks on end, turning the decision over and over in his mind, wondering if he was doing the right thing by insisting that Hannibal become his lover. It had been his choice, and his alone.
Well, he really couldn't say that, could he? It had been Hannibal's choice, too. He hadn't had to take what was offered. He could easily have turned ti down.
But he hadn't, and Will hadn't expected him to. He had known that Hannibal would reach out to take what he was giving. He'd known that Hannibal wouldn't be able to say no.
He'd probably been a fool to do what he had done. He didn't think Hannibal loved him, or ever would. He was just some momentary diversion, something to use and then discard when Hannibal was done with him. He should have realized that from the very beginning.
So where did that leave him? Will sighed softly, propping his chin on his hand. He would have to do a lot of thinking before he saw Hannibal again, and decide where he wanted this relationship to go.
He'd wanted it at first -- but now, he was having more than a few doubts. He didn't want to be with someone who didn't love him. Not when he could so easily fall in love with them.
At this point, it all came down to how Hannibal felt about him.
He wasn't entirely sure that he wanted to find out.
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