Title: Brave Enough
Author: brella_owul
Team Players: Jack & Ianto
Disclaimers: All owned by BBC and RTD of course!
Spoilers: Post Cyberwoman
Rating: NC-17 !
Summary: Sometimes being brave enough to speak can make big changes - angst(ish), fluff 'n' porn ! YAY!!

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Jack took a deep breath as he watched Ianto in the hub below. He smiled gently as his eyes followed him, collecting empty coffee cups in the dusky grey suit that hung on his shoulders so perfectly. Ianto's eyes flicked up and caught Jack's gaze, the smile that followed was coy and reproached Jack a little. The Captain beamed and winked at his young lover, the warmth filling every void in his body.

As Ianto turned away Jack's mind turned again to their conversation the night before. He had held the Welshman close to him, feeling their bodies cool together from the passion that began the moment they were alone. Ianto had turned in his arms and stroked his chest slowly
'Jack?' he'd whispered 'I need to tell you something'
At this Jack had tensed, it was automatic and his breath caught.
'Jack?'

'OK' Jack had said and loosened his hold on Ianto's body a little

'I don't know what you're going to say and I don't want you to freak out OK?' Ianto had stated and the atmosphere changed in the dark, intimate quarters

'I'll do my best' Jack had managed 'but it depends what you're going to hit me with here Ianto'
The fingers on his chest had started working frantically and he'd felt the Welshman's jaw move as he opened his mouth and closed it again several times in false starts
'Just say it, it cant be that bad' Jack had reassured despite the tension he was feeling.

Ianto had made another false start and then the words came out, tumbling and stuttered and mumbled at first but still reaching Jack's ears and, his heart
'You see the thing is ...I..umm, well I...actually you know...I love... you, look I don't want ...well no actually I do...uhh but I don't expect...uh but I do so ...so yes, umm there you go I've said it. I love you'

Then there had been silence and it was long, Ianto was panting a little and his whole body had stiffened. Jack's brain had tried to judge the response needed in a logical way whilst his soul had felt a relief and happiness he hadn't expected to ever feel again. He hadn't known what to say and so he had held Ianto tightly and dropped soft kisses on the top of his head until the Welshman took the bravest step that Jack could imagine, he'd asked shakily if his feelings were OK and Jack had said yes. That had been all that Ianto had asked of Jack, nothing more - he knew, Jack realised that anything more must come from Jack himself when he was ready.

 

The night had been long for Jack, he had held his lover until he felt the weight of him reaching deep sleep and then he had risen. Seven hours passed as he swigged whiskey and then coffee, watching the vulnerable man sleeping in his bed. The naked man tangled in cotton sheets, had seen so much, felt such pain but he had still opened himself up to Jack and still been able to give him strength and comfort. Jack had realised as Ianto turned over and over in his sleep that having lost Lisa, his greatest fear must have been loving again and yet he had faced that, he had faced it fully by revealing himself to Jack. The dawn had accompanied a new resolve in the Captain's mind, if Ianto could face his fears then so could he. He could dare to let himself feel, love, care; and he could dare to risk it on the gorgeous sleepy eyed tea-boy in his bed.




Now here he was at 6.30pm watching through the office window as Ianto finished for the day and he knew that as soon as Owen dragged his body through the door, it would be his time to be brave. He put his hand into his pocket and brought out the small box, he opened it and gave a small sigh. He hoped Ianto would like this gift, would understand it and know what it meant. It was a first for Jack Harkness to be trying to express deep emotions to another man, things were always easier when you had a mind-reading alien partner or a woman to woo or even just a standard guy that needed nothing more than relentless lust and a big smile.

'That's everything sorted' Ianto announced as he entered the office. He smiled uncertainly at Jack and hesitated 'I haven't seen much of you today - other than when you're watching me from the window'

'Yeah sorry' Jack smiled and walked slowly to the door. Pulling Ianto to him he felt the tension still there in the younger man's body
'I had some things I had to do Ianto, really important things' he whispered looking into the deep eyes that watched him nervously.

Ianto smiled and nodded slightly before Jack kissed him passionately, almost fiercely. He devoured Ianto's mouth, his tongue plundering the soft lips and bathing in the unique taste of the younger man.

'You know, you're fucking beautiful' Jack panted as they broke apart and Ianto felt the blood rising in his cheeks. He smiled and licked his lips
 'You're pretty fucking hot yourself' he laughed and almost fell as Jack pulled him down onto his lap and into the old armchair.



Ianto wriggled free full of lust and pulled at Jack's belt
'I've been missing you today, now I want you'  he almost purred as he dropped to his knees, pulling the belt loose and the trousers to Jack's ankles and then off the long legs altogether. He pushed Jack back in the chair and began to slowly lick his way along the other man's firm thighs before groaning and burying his face into the warm musky hair at the base of his cock. Jack was hard as steel and leaking pre-cum and Ianto licked the throbbing head with a series of soft short licks, sending the Captain into low groans of pleasure. The groans became hoarser as the Welshman cupped a hand around Jack's heavy balls, and he watched the thick erection twitch in response, more fluid running from the small slit. Jack's hands were holding Ianto's head now and he obeyed the pressure, swallowing the head of his cock and sucking it firmly. The moans grew louder as Ianto worked magic with his mouth and matched it with one hand gently squeezing Jack's balls and the other stroking his thick shaft. Jack's hands caressed Ianto's head, holding him now but not forcing his movements. The Captain's hips thrust deep into the younger man's willing mouth becoming wilder as Ianto began to hum as he sucked. He looked up from between Jack's thighs and saw his lover's head thrown back, panting between groans before he felt him suddenly stiffen as he shot hot cum into the eager mouth.

 

Jack pulled Ianto up onto his lap and kissed him tenderly
'You're mine' he said and Ianto smiled broadly at him

'That's all I want to be Jack'  he replied then gasped at the sudden pleasure of Jack's fingers rubbing his cock through his trousers. He moaned as Jack found his way inside his zip and touched the dampness of his boxers, all the while using his tongue in Ianto's ear. The Welshman allowed Jack to push him up to standing, pull his trousers and boxers off and then pull him back down so that he was kneeling astride him. As Jack kissed him again, thrusting his tongue into his mouth, Ianto felt his passion build. The rhythm of Jack's fist around his cock was matching the heavenly tongue but on each upstroke, Jack twisted his wrist and slid his thumb over the sensitive head. As Ianto writhed in pleasure, Jack slid down in the chair so his face was level with the throbbing cock and he swallowed it smoothly to the base in one go. Ianto cried out 'Jack!', and his hips bucked into Jack's expert mouth. The Captain's hands on his naked ass urged him to thrust deeper and seconds later the Welshman came hard as Jack tried to suck him dry.

 

Releasing Ianto's cock from his mouth he pulled himself back to the Welshman's level and guided his face down to a tender kiss before pulling back into his lap.
Ianto sighed and nuzzled Jack's neck 'Thank you'

'No, thank you!' Jack giggled, squeezing him tightly

'Not for that' Ianto said hesitantly 'for...'

'Not running away screaming "Arghhh" last night?' the Captain teased

'Yes' the Welshman's reply was muffled as he buried his embarrassed face further into the strong neck 'For letting me say I love you'

Jack pushed himself away from the back of the chair and taking the cue Ianto stood up. He looked away unable to meet Jack's eye
'I'm sorry! I...'

'I'm not running off!' Jack called as he made for his jacket 'stay right there'

Ianto wavered slightly, feeling unsure and more than a bit daft, he naked from the waist down but still wearing a suit jacket. He shrugged the jacket off, loosened his tie and waited.
'What are you doing?' he called uncertainly but when he looked up Jack was standing in the doorway fully dressed and staring at him intently. The look of concern on Ianto's face seemed to stir him and he beamed as he walked across to him
'It's OK Ianto. I just wanted this to be about more than sex'

'What to be about more than sex?' Ianto replied as Jack took his hand.
Jack pulled the blue box from his pocket and held it out to Ianto with a shy smile. 
'This is for you' he said. 'It's what I meant to say last night'
Ianto took the gift and tried to swallow but his mouth was dry, he opened the box and gave a small gasp at its contents. It was a silver stopwatch but on its face was a label saying P.T.O., he did so and engraved on the reverse was just one word - 'Forever'.

Ianto's hands shook slightly as he held the stopwatch and looked from that one word to Jack's eyes, his mouth frozen open in delighted shock
'I'm sorry I didn't get things right last night' Jack said softly and reached out to stroke the Welshman's face

'No, this is right' Ianto managed, swallowing at last 'this is perfect. You are...'

'I'm yours' finished Jack 'Forever' and he angled the still shocked face and kissed the Welshman long and deep trying to express all the love and gratitude he could. His tongue slid against Ianto's, exploring every part of his mouth, and when he pulled away Ianto was almost weak in his arms.

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