Title: Walk Away If You Want To (Two Steps Behind)
By: Serenity
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Summary: Angsty. Nick has been avoiding Greg after the events of Grave Danger, so Greg writes him a letter to tell him he'll always be there.

Dear Nick,

I'm writing you this letter because I need to let you know how I feel. I hope that you actually read it, and don't just toss it in the trash, because you won't let me talk to you, you avoid me as much as you can. It's as if you can't bear to be around me. So I guess this is the only way we can communicate.

I understand that you need to take some time for yourself after everything that you've been through, but I don't want you to push me away. Please don't do that. We've been through too much to give up on our relationship, and I want you to know that no matter what, I'll be here for you. You can run away from all this, but you can't hide yourself from me, I know you too well. I know you inside out, as you know me.

Walk away if you want to, take a break, it's OK if that's what you need to do. But I'll always be waiting for you. I love you, Nick. Never forget that. Turn around and I'll be there, watching your back, making sure you're OK. And when you're ready to live again, I'll be here.

Take some time to think about it, please. I know that you're searching for something, some deeper meaning to life, but this is it, baby. This is what life is, it's about loving and being loved, no one can ask for more than that. I love you so much that it burns me like fire, but I embrace that gladly, because it's better than feeling nothing, feeling empty.

I don't want to make you remember what happened, so I won't dwell on that part. I just want you to know that I never once gave up looking for you. I felt it in my heart, in my soul that we would find you alive, and we did. We got you. We brought you back.

I just want to hold you and make everything OK, but I know that's not going to happen. I know I can't fix this for you, and that breaks me, but the only thing I can do is step back and let you work this out for yourself. And you will get there, I know that. You're such a strong, amazing person, Nick, and I won't let you forget that.

I won't let you forget me either. It took me too long to get you talked into dating me, I'm not letting you go, not now, not ever. I love you, Nick. I love you.

Turn around and I'll be two steps behind you. I'm here for you, always. As soon as you're ready.

All my love

Greg