Title: Self Gratification
By: Fran Holland
Pairing: Gil/Nick

Gil refused to look at the red shopping bag that sat on his dining room table. It seemed to taunt him every time he passed it. Two days later, it still sat there. He glared at the inanimate object as he left for work.

Nick was off on vacation, visiting his family in Texas. Before he had left, he had given Gil the little red bag as a gift. He had told Gil it was something to keep him busy and in the mood until he returned.

Gil was not amused. Nick would be in Texas for three more days. Gil missed him more than he thought possible, but not enough to open that bag. He knew how Nick thought and it was no telling what was in there.

So far, when Nick called, he had not mentioned the bag and Gil was grateful for that, but he knew it was coming. He hated hurting Nick's feelings, but he was scared to even look into a bag from a store called 'Lovers' Delights'.

He let himself into his townhouse after a very busy shift. He was tired, hungry and needed a shower very badly. He decided on the shower first. The hot water felt good on his aching muscles. As he was toweling off, his cell phone rang. He wrapped the towel around his waist and stepped into the bedroom to grab the phone off the dresser.

His eyebrows drew together as he looked at his phone. It wasn't a call, it was a text message from Nick. Gil looked at the message and smiled. The message was short and sweet.

'I miss you. Check your email.'

Gil put the phone down and grabbed a pair of sweats out of his dresser drawer. Nick had gotten him out of the habit of wearing underwear under his sweats. Nick was very spontaneous when it came to sex, and he told Gil that underwear just held up the proceedings.

He trotted down the stairs and made his way into the kitchen. After fixing an omelet and toast, he took his plate to the dining room table, where his laptop sat. He booted it up and took a bit of omelet while he waited.

His computer gave a little ding as the screen appeared. He logged in and pulled up his email. He deleted the four spam messages, and checked out one from an old friend. Finally, he opened Nick's, noticing that it had attachments.

Nick's message was full of family gossip and what he had been doing for the past few days. He told Gil that he really missed him and would make it up to him when he got back. Gil then clicked on the attachments. He groaned.

The attachments were pictures that Nick had obviously taken with his cell phone. One was of his erect cock with his hands wrapped tightly around it. One was a cum shot and the last one was of Nick licking his cum off of his fingers.

Gil's cock was instantly at attention. And like a siren song, the red bag peeked out from behind his computer screen. Without logging off, Gil stood up and snatched up the bag. He dumped the contents onto the table. His eyes widened as he saw a long, narrow vibrator, a package of batteries, a new bottle of flavored lubricant and a DVD. He picked up the DVD with fingers that slightly trembled. 'Cum Shots 3'. Gil wondered briefly about the first two editions, then stuffed everything back in the bag.

He walked upstairs with the bag, mumbling under his breath that he could masturbate without the use of props, had been doing it for years.

He sat the bag on the dresser, slid the sweatpants off and laid on the bed that he and Nick has shared for the last several months. Though they did not live together and their co-workers did not know about their relationship, they spent most of their off time together.

Gil closed his eyes and thought about those pictures. Nick was so hot. He wanted him badly. Only two and a half more days. His hand moved slowly over his hard cock, stroking up and down. His eyes opened and lit on the red bag sitting on the dresser.

"Damn it." Gil snapped as he swung his legs off the bed. He snatched out the DVD and popped it into the DVD player that Nick had insisted they buy for the bedroom. He grabbed the remote and the red bag and took them to the bed. He took all the pillows and stacked him up under his head and hit the remote.

Gil had never been one to watch porn. In his younger days, he had seen a few, but he could not remember watching one in the last twenty years or so. Boy, had things changed. For one thing, the quality of the film was a lot better.

Gil could not believe what he was seeing. He lost count of the men having their cocks sucked until they came all over their partners' faces, and the ones that were just masturbating to ejaculation, or the ones being fucked until they shot cum all over their stomachs. Gil's own erection was painful and he grabbed the bottle of lubricant and poured some in his hand. He stroked his cock, wishing Nick's mouth was on him. How he wished Nick were here to fuck him.

Then his eyes lit on the vibrator and batteries. He hurriedly fumbled with the packaging until he had the batteries installed. He flipped the device on and was amazed at the way it felt in his hand.

He grabbed the bottle of lubricant again and poured it down the length of the vibrator. He used his fist to make sure it was slippery enough for what he wanted. No, what he needed.

Gil positioned himself on his hands and knees. Holding himself up with one arm, he slowly worked his finger into his tight puckered hole and moaned as he fucked himself with his finger. After a few minutes, he inserted another finger.

"Nicky, God, Nicky, fuck me." Gil panted as he stretched himself enough to finally take the pulsing vibrator. The vibrator was not near as thick as Nick was and so he slid it right in. The sensation was so intense that he almost came, but he breathed deep and held the vibrator still until he could contain himself.

Slowly he began fucking himself with the vibrator as he watched the video playing out on the television. His breathing became labored and without even touching his cock, he came. He cried out Nick's name as his cum shot all over the bed. He slowly pulled the vibrator out and tossed it on the bed and rolled over onto his back.

He fell asleep with the movie's ending credits rolling across the screen.

When he awoke, it was late afternoon. He wondered what that hissing sound was until his eyes focused on the television. The morning's events flooded back. He picked up the remote and shut off the television and DVD player. His eyes moved over to Nick's side of the bed and saw the bottle of lubricant, the vibrator and the dried cum.

He smiled to himself. Nick knew what he had needed after all. He got up and put the bottle of lubricant in the nightstand with their condoms and other bottles of lubricant. He took the vibrator into the bathroom and washed it off and put it in the drawer also. He put on his sweatpants again and stripped off the bedspread and took it downstairs. Once it was in the washing machine, he sat down at the computer and grinned as he began typing an email to his lover.

'Loved the pictures. Loved the presents. Wish you were here.' Gil hit the send button.

Gil put the bedspread in the dryer and threw a frozen dinner in the microwave. He had just finished eating when his cell phone rang. Nick's number was on the screen.

"Grissom." Gil said out of habit.

"Gil, I got your email." Nick sounded kind of strange.

"You okay, Nicky?" Gil asked, concerned.

"Oh yeah. I'm booked on the 11:30 flight out of Dallas. I'll be flying in to Vegas at 4:00 in the morning." Nick said.

"This morning? What's wrong, Nick? Did something happen with your parents?" Gil was really concerned now. Gil knew that Nick's parents did not know Nick was bi-sexual and involved with him.

"Everything's okay, Gil. I just got your email today and realized how much I wanted to be there, with you." Nick said quietly. "I imagined how you used the things I left for you and I have been so horny that I can't function. I told the family that something came up."

"Oh." Gil said.

"Oh?" Nick laughed. "Is that all you have to say?"

"I can't wait to see you." Gil whispered.

Gil heard voices on the other end of the line and assumed that some of Nick's family had entered the room. Nick's next words confirmed it.

"Okay, Grissom. I'll be flying in at 4:00 a.m. and I'll be at work by 5:00. Yeah, not a problem. I understand. Bye."

"Bye." Gil said as Nick hung up. Gil closed his phone and smiled to himself. Nick was coming home early.

Gil straightened the kitchen, showered and watched television until it was time for him to leave for work. Catherine met him in the parking lot as he got out of the Denali. They walked in together, already discussing schedule changes and other work related matters.

Catherine ran into Jim in the hall later that evening. "Hey, Jim. Have you talked to Gil tonight?"

"No, I was headed to his office now. Why? What's up?" Jim asked.

"He's just acting strange. Happy, you know, like he discovered a new species of bug, or something."

Jim laughed and continued down the hall to Gil's office.

"What's up?" Jim asked jovially.

Gil smiled at his friend. "Not much."

"Hey, I'm thinking about buying a townhouse like yours and getting out of that apartment. What do you think?" Asked Jim.

"Cool." Gil said "Great idea. I think there is one for sale a few doors down from me."

"Cool?" Jim lifted his eyebrows. "Since when does Gil Grissom say 'cool'?"

Gil blushed. "I've been hanging out with Sara and Warrick too long."

Jim noticed the absence of Nick's name. He had his suspicions, but he would play Gil's little game.

"Yeah." Jim said dryly. "So, want to have a drink after work?"

"No!" Gil said a little to quick and a little to loudly. "I have something to do after work."

"Cool." Jim said with a sly grin as he walked out of Gil's office.

Later on in the shift, Gil was on a hit and run case with Sara when his cell phone rang. It was Nick. Gil glanced at his watch. Time had gotten away from him and he realized that Nick was on the ground in Vegas.

"Grissom." Nick knew when Gil answered his phone like that, he had people around him and Nick acted accordingly.

"I'm on the ground. I'll see you at your place later."

"That's fine. See you then." Gil answered and closed his phone. Sara looked at him like she wanted him to share, but he just turned and continued processing the scene. It took them another two hours to gather all the evidence, interview the witness and get back to the lab.

Only one more hour, Gil thought as he logged in his evidence and wrote up his report. Time was dragging.

Finally, it was 7:45. Gil was desperately trying to finish his report and sign off on the night's files.

Warrick came into his office and wanted to talk to him about his DB case. Gil tried to be interested, but his eyes kept darting up at the clock on the wall. After awhile, Warrick realized the Gil was not listening to a word he said and giving his boss a strange look, got up and walked out.

Catherine met him in the hall. "Grissom's acting weird." Warrick told her.

"Yeah. I noticed it too." Catherine agreed.

"Maybe he's getting laid." Warrick said with a wicked grin.

"Yeah, right. He probably just got a new butterfly for his collection." They both laughed as they left the building for the night.

For the first time in a long time, Gil left files on his desk and left the building right as the clock struck 8:00. He even drove over the speed limit and almost ran a red light. Telling himself to calm down, he slowed and tried to keep his mind on driving.

When he pulled into his slot, Nick's truck was already there. Gil walked quickly up the sidewalk and opened the front door. Nick was on the couch watching television, but he stood and met Gil halfway. The men wrapped their arms around each other and Nick's kiss weakened Gil's knees. They kissed until they were both breathless. Gil was the one who broke the kiss and said, "God, Nicky, I missed you so much."

"Not as much as I missed you." Nick grinned at his lover. "Let's go upstairs. I'm hornier than a three-peckered billy goat."

"Another Texas colloquialism from Nick Stokes." Laughed Gil.

The two men walked up the stairs, Nick talking the entire time about his family and friends. Once they got to the bedroom, Nick stopped talking and began to undress quickly. By the time that Gil unbuttoned his shirt and slipped off his shoes, Nick was already naked. Gil reached over and fondled Nick's erection.

"Want you so bad." Gil said as his mouth came down on Nick's.

Nick unzipped Gil's pants and pushed them down on his hips. His hand brushed Gil's cock through the material and Gil groaned.

"Slow down. We have all day," Nick whispered. "And I want to play." His hands were roaming all over Gil's bare chest.

"Play? I want to fuck." Gil knew that Nick loved it when he talked dirty.

Nick laughed and pinched Gil's nipples. "Ow." Gil gasped.

"If I recall correctly, you had things your way my last night in town. This one is mine." Nick said slyly, as he pushed Gil's pants completely down. Gil stepped out of them. Gil knew that Nick was right. His last night in town before his vacation, Gil had handcuffed him to the bed and teased him for about an hour before he let him come. He wondered what Nick had in mind. He did not have to wait long.

"Lay down on the bed and get comfortable." Nick said as he went over to the DVD player. He saw the empty case for 'Cum Shots 3' and smiled back at Gil. He hit play.

Gil was leaning against the headboard and groaned, "Nick, we don't need that."

"Work with me, Darlin.'" Nick said in an exaggerated Texas accent.

Nick went to the bedside table and opened the drawer. He took out the lubricant and the vibrator and laid them beside Gil on the bed.

"Nick?"

"Shhhh." Nick shushed him and sat down near the foot of the bed.

"I want you to show me what you did while I was gone." Nick said huskily. "I want to watch you masturbate."

Gil swallowed and said, "I can't. I've never done that in front of someone else."

"I'm not just anyone, Gil." Nick looked deep into Gil's blue eyes. "I want this."

Gil sighed and looked down at Nick's hard cock. It had pre-cum dripping down the head. He knew he would do anything to make Nick happy. He got on his hands and knees and picked up the bottle of lubricant. Once his fingers were wet, he inserted one in his ass. This time, instead of watching the video, he watched Nick. As his fingers moved in and out of his ass, Nick's hand was slowly stroking his cock, his eyes never leaving Gil's hand.

Gil added another finger and moved a little faster. His cock was throbbing and Nick's face was flushed. Both men were breathing rapidly.

Gil picked up the vibrator and turned it on. Since his hole was already slick with lubricant, he just inserted slowly. Nick whimpered and leaned forward.

"Please, let me do it." Gil moved his hand and Nick began fucking him with the humming device. Nick shifted his position so he stood behind Gil. His eyes were glued to the vibrator disappearing in Gil's tight hole.

Gil was moaning and his hand came up and stroked his aching cock. Knowing that Nick was the one fucking him with the vibrator turned him on so much, he knew that he would not last much longer.

Suddenly, Nick groaned and pulled the vibrator out and threw it on the floor. He sunk his cock deep into Gil's waiting hole. Gil gasped at the intrusion. Nick was bigger than the vibrator and it took a second for the pain to go away. Gil reached behind him and cupped Nick's balls and gave a little squeeze and he continued to pump his cock.

Nick started pounding into Gil's ass. Gil could hear him panting and the sound of damp skin smacking skin.

"So good, so tight. Gonna come. Fuckfuckfuck." Nick screamed out as he flooded Gil's ass with a load of cum. Gil felt the heat of Nick's orgasm and he came all over his hand.

Nick pulled out and rolled over, pulling Gil down with him, so they were spooning.

"God, that was so hot." Nick panted out. "Watching you was amazing."

Gil just smiled and rubbed the strong arms that were wrapped around him.

"Next time, I get to watch you." Gil said as the two men drifted off to sleep.

The End.