Title: Luctful Things
By: Fran Holland
Pairing: Gil/Nick

"Go home and get some sleep and I'll see you tonight." Gil said. They were standing in the locker room and Gil was watching Nick change out of his white oxford shirt into a dark blue t-shirt. Even though they had been lovers for three months, the sight of Nick's chest and flat stomach still caused Gil's cock to stir.

"You cooking tonight?" Nick asked. He unbuttoned his jeans to tuck the t-shirt in and Gil glanced down to watch his hands. He realized that he did not see the waistband of underwear.

"You're not wearing underwear." Gil hissed and banged his head back on the locker he was leaning against.

Nick chuckled. "I must have forgot to put some on." He glanced around the locker room and then leaned towards Gil to whisper, "Does it turn you on to know that this whole night..."

Gil cut him off with a hand over his mouth. "Careful, Sweetheart."

Nick backed up a step and grinned. He slammed his locker shut and brushed past Gil. His hand 'accidentally' brushed Gil's groin as he walked past. Gil groaned, "You are such a tease."

Nick just laughed. "I'll see you around 5:30 or so." He left Gil in the locker room. Gil stood, still leaning back against a locker and smiled to himself. Who would have thought that Nick Stokes would be his lover? Surely not him. Long ago, he assumed that Nick was way out of his league.

That had all changed back in April. Nick had asked Gil for a ride to and from work for a few days while his truck was being repaired. Gil had gotten to Nick's early one evening, so Nick had invited him in while he finished getting ready. Gil had wondered around Nick's living room looking at the bookshelves and Nick's collection of DVDs and he happened across some gay porn. Gil had the DVD in his hand when Nick came around the corner.

Gil would never forget the look on Nick's face. Panic was etched all over the other man's face. Gil had felt so sorry for the younger man that he blurted out, "Can I borrow this?"

Nick had looked so shocked that Gil had to stifle a laugh.

"I...uh...I...guess you can." Nick had looked everywhere but at Gil.

"Thanks. I'll get it back to you in a few days."

"Sure...keep it as long as you need...." Nick blushed to almost fire engine red. "I mean...you can...Jesus, Gil."

"Nick, relax. It's okay. I really don't like labels, but some would call me bisexual. I really don't care that you are gay or bi or whatever."

"I swing both ways." Nick had replied softly.

"Good, well then, we have another thing in common. Now, let's get to work." Gil had turned and headed for the front door before Nick could get a grasp on the whole situation.

Once they were in Gil's car, Nick watched as Gil put the DVD into his glove compartment and turned the key in the ignition.

"Griss? Can I ask you something?"

"Sure, Nicky." Gil glanced over as he backed out of Nick's driveway.

"I never knew...never suspected that you were...you know. So, I was wondering if you ever suspected that I was...you know.

"Nick, you don't have to be embarrassed about using the word bisexual. And in answer to your question, no, that was the last thing I would have ever suspected of you."

"Since we're sort of...like the same...maybe this won't cause any problems at work..." Nick's hands were wet with sweat. He had never been so nervous in all his life. He'd lived with his dirty, little secret for a long time and being outed by his boss, by Gil Grissom, the man he'd had the hots for from day one, well, he felt like a cat in a room full of rocking chairs.

"This won't cause any problems at work, I promise."

The men did not speak again until they had pulled into the parking lot of the crime lab. As soon as Gil shut off the ignition, Nick blurted out, "Do you find me attractive?"

And that was how their whole relationship started. Gil finally pushed away from the lockers and headed home. He was half way there when he remembered that he never watched that DVD. At the next red light, he reached over and opened his glove compartment and there it was. He laughed softly.

After showering, Gil lay down on his bed and got comfortable. The other pillow smelled like Nick. He wrapped his arms around it and fell into a deep sleep.

His alarm woke him at 4:00. He rushed through another shower and trimmed his beard. After dressing he ran downstairs and picked up the DVD that he had left on the coffee table. He popped it in the DVD player and picked up the remote. While he was brewing his coffee, he fast-forwarded through the opening credits. Thirty minutes later, he was hot and bothered and had a great idea for his evening with Nick.

Their sex life was never dull. In only three months, they had not had time to fall into complacency. Gil was sure that they never would. Both men seemed to be on the same wavelength when it came to bedroom activities. Sometimes they would just lie around and kiss for hours and finish with a mutual handjob. Other times, the sex would be rough and fast. Neither was really a bottom or top, so each man felt in control at different times. They had even tried a role-playing game once and Gil had gotten a kick out of that. So had Lady Heather, since she got to watch.

It was Nick's openness when it came to sex that Gil was counting on for tonight. The movie had inspired him to try a bit of kinkiness.

Nick was supposed to be here at 5:30, so it gave him less than 45 minutes to run his errand, grab something for dinner and get back to the house. He was backing out of his parking space less than two minutes later.

His first stop was a small store off the strip. The windows were painted black and once he was inside, Gil just stared in wonder at the assortment of sexual aids and devices, not to mention racks of latex and rubber clothing.

"Can I help you?" Came a voice from his left. He turned and noticed the tall, thin man behind the counter.

Because of his time constraints, Gil had to swallow his embarrassment and told the man exactly what he needed. Not even batting an eye, the man came around the counter and began pulling items off of shelves and racks. Gil stood rooted to the spot for a few minutes and then slowly made his way to the counter where the man was piling up the requested items.

He held up three packages, "Do you want the small, medium or large?"

Gil looked at him blankly and took the easy route. "Medium, I guess."

The man put one next to the register and laid the other two aside. He placed several items in a row. "Leather, plastic or metal?"

"I don't know." Gil looked at the things laid out before him and then looked up at the clerk with an expression of confusion.

"I recommend the leather, since it's obviously your first time using one." He turned the package over. "Instructions are on the back, but it's kind of self-explanatory."

"Okay." Gil replied quietly.

"Do you have lubricant?"

"Yes." Gil felt relieved that he could answer one question correctly.

"I recommend a water soluble one for men, it won't breakdown the latex in condoms and it's better for your toys. I have some flavored ones, if you want to try something different."

"Flavored?"

"Sure, I've got peppermint, pina colada, banana, strawberry and chocolate."

"Chocolate." Gil loved chocolate. What could be better than Nick tasting like chocolate? He suddenly felt like a horny teenager and couldn't wait to get home.

The last item to be rung up at the register was the scariest one for Gil. "I can't really hurt him with that, can I?"

"It would take a lot of force to really hurt someone. This one is actually our best seller because you get the effect and just enough pain to be pleasurable, but it won't break the skin."

"Okay."

"That'll be $63.42. Are you sure you don't need anything else?"

Gil pulled out his credit card and handed it over the counter. "No, I think I have everything I need."

On his way out of the shop with a black plastic shopping bag hanging from one hand, Gil glanced down at his watch. He'd just have to call in and order pizza or something, in order to get home in time to be prepared for Nick.

****

Nick pulled in next to Gil's car and hurried up the walk. They hadn't had sex in four days and he was incredibly horny. He was hoping that Gil hadn't planned anything special for dinner. At this point, Nick would settle for a sandwich, just so he could get Gil into bed faster.

Nick knocked once and then inserted his key. They had exchanged keys last month, but Nick still felt the need to warn Gil by knocking once. He tossed his key ring on the table by the front door and rounded the corner into the living room.

Gil was standing at his kitchen counter wearing his bathrobe, drinking a glass of juice. Nick grinned at him.

"Hey." Nick walked right up to him and wrapped his arms around him. "I've waited all week to get you alone."

"Take off your clothes, Nick." Gil's voice had a commanding tone that Nick didn't recognize, but since it was Gil and Gil wanted him naked, who was he to argue.

Nick pulled the t-shirt over his head and kicked off his boots. He leaned against the counter for balance as he removed his socks. His hands were on the snap of his jeans when he noticed what was in Gil's hand.

"Whoa, Babe. Where did that come from?" Nick stared at the cat-o-nine-tails.

"This morning, in the locker room, you were such a tease. Tonight, you're going to get punished for it." Gil cocked his head to one side. "Finish undressing."

Nick blushed. This was a side of Gil he had not seen, but there was something about his tone of voice and the whip in his hand that caused Nick's cock to swell. He finished unfastening his jeans and slid them down his legs. He hooked his fingers in the waistband of his boxer briefs, but Gil stopped him.

"Leave them on for now." Gil came around the counter and ran his hand over Nick's swollen cock. "Go over to the back of the couch and bend over."

Nick turned and did what he was told. Gil's hand came to rest on the small indention just above Nick's waist. Nick shivered as Gil's hand traveled up his spine and back down again. He was leaning over the back of the couch with his elbows supporting his upper body. He felt Gil's fingers pull the waistband of his underwear down and when Gil's finger rubbed across his puckered entrance, Nick moaned and arched his back.

"Gil, don't tease, man. I need you."

When he felt the whip across his ass, he yelped and jerked forward. "What was that...?"

"You only speak when I give you permission to do so. Do you understand?"

"Yes." Nick said breathlessly. He had never played any games with spanking before, but he had to admit that it was a turn-on.

Gil's finger returned to rub against Nick's asshole. "Does that feel good?"

"Yes. God, yes." Nick pushed back, wanting Gil to fill him.

"Close your eyes and don't move. If you open your eyes or move, you will be punished."

Gil moved his hand away and Nick groaned with frustration.

A few seconds later, Nick felt a slippery coolness running between the cheeks of his ass. Without warning, Gil's finger pushed inside of him. He gasped at the sudden intrusion, but the pain turned to pleasure in seconds. Gil removed his finger after only a minute and Nick felt something cool and firm press against him. He couldn't tell what it was, but when Gil pushed the buttplug into him, he whimpered.

"You'll leave this in until I'm ready to take you." Gil roughly slid Nick's briefs down his legs.

Nick opened his eyes and felt the sting of the leather thongs hit his right ass cheek.

"I didn't give you permission to open your eyes."

Nick quickly shut his eyes again. He felt Gil's hand rub across the spot on his ass that he had just spanked.

"Such a nice, tight ass. I can't wait to fuck it later." Gil voice was full of heat.

Gil continued to run his hand over Nick's ass and with each pass of his hand; he inched closer and closer to the underside of Nick's balls. With his eyes closed, the sensations of the buttplug inside him and the warmth of Gil's hand on his skin were amplified. Sweat had formed on his forehead and his breathing had become labored. His cock ached to be touched, but he remained still.

"You may open your eyes. Stand up and turn around." Gil took a step back so that when Nick turned he was about a foot from Gil. Nick kicked off the briefs that had pooled around his ankles and stood for Gil's inspection. Gil looked down at Nick's erect cock. He loved that Nick's cock was of average length, but he could barely wrap his fingers around it. The first time Nick had fucked him, Gil thought he was going to be torn open, but Nick had gotten him so hot and had entered him so slowly, that Gil had loved every second of it.

Nick saw that Gil's face was flushed with excitement and he was happy to note that Gil's breathing was almost as labored as his own. When Nick looked down, he saw the head of Gil's cock poking out from between the edges of his robe.

Gil reached his hand out and cupped Nick's balls.

"Whose are these?" Gil asked, giving them a small squeeze.

"Yours." Gil nodded at Nick's answer and dragged the thongs of his whip across Nick's hard shaft. Nick shivered as he looked down at the leather thongs caressing his cock.

Gil reached over to the end table, and for the first time Nick noticed the black, plastic bag. Gil's hand disappeared inside and came out with a strap of leather with several silver snaps along its length. Nick had seen one of these in a porn movie once, but had never seen one up close and personal. By the looks of things, Nick knew he was going to get real close and personal with it.

Gil laid the whip on the back of the couch and with one hand he gripped Nick's hard cock, with the other, he wrapped the black leather strap under the base of Nick's balls and over the base of his cock. He pulled it snug and snapped the snap. Nick felt the tightness and wondered if it was going to cut off his blood supply, and then almost laughed as he remembered that his cock was already engorged with blood.

"Follow me." Gil walked around the couch and sat down in on of the living room chairs.

Nick's first step was painful due to the buttplug. With every light step, he felt his body moving around the intrusion. It took him a few minutes, but soon he was standing directly in front of Gil.

"On your knees."

Nick used the arms of the chair to ease himself into a kneeling position.

Gil slowly untied the belt of his robe and pushed both edges aside. Nick gazed down at Gil's erection. Nested in the brown and gray curls, was Gil's nine-inch cock. Hard and wet at the tip. Nick reached out to wrap his hand around it, but Gil lifted the whip.

"Not yet. Put your hands behind your back."

Gil pulled the bottle of lubricant from the pocket of his robe and drizzled some of the chocolate flavored gel down the length of his shaft. He put the bottle on the table next to his chair and wrapped his fingers around his cock. He stroked it up and down a few times, spreading the lubricant. Nick gazed at Gil's hand in rapt fascination.

"Suck me, Nicky. Just your mouth, keep your hands behind your back."

Nick leaned forward and took the head of Gil's cock into his mouth. His eyes widened, as he tasted the chocolate. He groaned as he took the entire length into his mouth. His head moved up and down in Gil's lap, taking every inch again and again. Gil could feel Nick's talented tongue swirling around the head of his cock on every upstroke. He could feel his balls tightening.

"Make me come, Baby. I want you to take it all. Every drop. God, Nicky." Gil's hips thrust forward, forcing his cock down Nick's waiting throat and he erupted into Nick's hot mouth. Nick tasted Gil's salty cum and moaned in satisfaction. He always loved making Gil come this way.

Gil closed his eyes and leaned his head back while Nick released his spent cock. Nick knew that the head of Gil's cock was super-sensitive after his orgasms, so he gently bathed the length with small laps of his tongue. He could still taste some of the chocolate and he smiled as his tongue traced one of the veins on the underside of Gil's flaccid penis.

Gil's breathing slowed and he opened his eyes. "Very good, Nicky. Now, stand up."

Nick stood gingerly. Even though the buttplug did not hurt, it was still a bit uncomfortable when he moved.

"Turn around and spread your legs."

Nick did as he was told. He really was enjoying himself and he was looking forward to what Gil had planned next.

Gil gripped the end of the buttplug and pulled it out. He sat up so he was sitting on the edge of the chair and buried his face in Nick's crack. Nick's knees came close to buckling when he felt Gil's tongue slip into his loosened hole. Gil's hand reached up between Nick's legs to cup his testicles as Gil's tongue continued to work Nick. Nick was visibly shaking with need, but when he reached down to touch himself, he felt Gil draw away and then felt the sting of the whip across his ass.

Nick grunted at the sharp sting, but dropped his hands to his sides.

"I was going to give you pleasure, but you were a bad boy. Now, you'll just have to wait." Gil said sternly. Nick felt the tip of the buttplug at his entrance again and this time he was ready for it. He pushed out as Gil pushed in and he relished in the feeling of fullness. "Turn around and get on your knees again."

Nick complied. Gil leaned back and spread his legs so that each one draped over the arm of the chair, leaving his entire groin and ass exposed. "Did you like the chocolate?"

"Yes."

"Get the bottle and pour some in your hand." Nick picked up the bottle off the table and poured out about a tablespoon. He glanced up at Gil, awaiting his next order.

"Rub it on my balls and down to my asshole."

Nick let his hand slid up and down the underside of Gil's balls, and then he coated Gil's balls with the slick substance. Once Gil's balls glistened with the sweet smelling lubricant, Nick rubbed the remainder around Gil's entrance.

"Yes, that's it." Gil whispered. "Feels so good. Now lick me."

Nick obliged. He ran his tongue over Gil's balls. Taking one in his hot mouth and then the other. He let them roll around on his tongue. He licked and sucked until all the lubricant was washed away, as he moved down to the sensitive skin of the perineum, her heard Gil whimper. He licked and gently used his teeth, knowing that it drove Gil crazy.

"Oh, God. Nicky. Jesus. Pleasepleaseplease." Nick loved how Gil sounded as he begged. Gil might be playing a game where he was in control, but Nick knew that at this moment in time, Nick was really the one in control.

Nick tongue darted against Gil's tight muscle and Gil's flaccid cock jerked in response. Nick began to really work his tongue in and around Gil's asshole until Gil's cock was hard again and Gil's breath came out in short gasps. Nick's hands held onto Gil's thighs, keeping them open to him as he drove his tongue deep inside of Gil.

"Stop, Nicky, you've got to stop. I need to be inside of you." Gil's voice was raspy with need.

Knowing that the game Gil had been playing was now over due to the intense need of both of them, Nick stood up and pushed Gil's knees off the arms of the chair, so that he was once again in a seated position. Nick reached behind him and pulled out the buttplug. He looked at it briefly and knew he'd be using it on Gil sometime in the near future, but now he had more important things to do. He placed it on the table and picked up the lubricant. He generously slathered lubricant in his hand and onto Gil's straining cock. He straddled Gil by placing his knees on each side of Gil's hips and impaled himself. He was too turned on to take it slowly and the buttplug had loosened his muscle enough so that there was not much pain. In once motion, he sank down onto Gil's cock completely. Their eyes locked and each saw dark lust mirrored in the other's eyes.

"Fuck me, Gil." Nick demanded as his hips began grinding into Gil's.

"Yes, Baby. God, you feel so good." Gil's hands gripped Nick's hips and pumped up and into Nick's tight ass. Nick's head was thrown back and he was jerking himself off. Gil looked up at his younger lover and knew at that precise moment that he was in love. He had been very much in lust with Nick Stokes from the first day he met the man, but this feeling had nothing to do with sex. His heart actually ached and when Nick looked right into his eyes as he emptied himself onto Gil's chest, Gil knew he would spend the rest of his life making sure Nick was happy, safe and well loved.

Gil's orgasm sent shock waves through his body as he spilled his semen deep inside Nick. Nick's orgasm had caused his muscles to tighten around Gil's cock and he milked him dry. Nick relaxed onto Gil's lap, his arms around Gil's shoulders and he nuzzled against Gil's soft beard.

"God, that was fucking unbelievable." Nick said into Gil's neck. His voice was muffled but Gil made out the words just fine. Gil was still inside of Nick when suddenly Gil jerked free and gripped Nick's shoulders.

"Nicky, we forgot to use a condom! I'm so sorry, Baby." Gil eyes were wide with fear.

Nick reached up and cupped Gil's face. "Hey, it's okay. We're tested. Neither of us has been promiscuous. Don't worry, Gil. It'll be okay."

Gil closed his eyes and sighed. "I can't believe we got that carried away." He murmured. The moment of panic subsided as he realized that Nick was right. Maybe now was the time to tell Nick how deep his feelings were.

When Gil opened his eyes, it was to see Nick's concerned deep brown eyes staring back at him.

"Are you okay?" Nick asked.

"Better than okay." Gil smiled up at Nick. He ran his hands up Nick's chest and gently massaged the places where his hands had gripped Nick a few minutes earlier.

"We should probably shower and eat if we want to be ready for work in time." Nick said as he began to uncoil his legs from the chair.

"Nick?"

"Hummm." Nick was in the process of lifting himself off of Gil when Gil's next words made him freeze.

"I love you." Gil said the words softly.

Nick's breath caught in his throat. "Gil...I...don't..."

"It's okay. You don't have to say anything. I just needed to tell you that. I'm okay with what we have, I don't need more, I just needed..."

"Gil, shut up." Nick said to the stuttering man under him.

Gil's mouth snapped shut.

"I've waited so long to hear those words. You can wait a few seconds for me to savor them, can't you?" Nick gave Gil a gentle smile.

Gil just nodded.

"I love you too, Gil. I think I always have." Nick leaned down and his mouth met Gil's. The kiss they shared was not passionate, but was so warm and loving that Gil was moved to tears. Nick tasted the salty tears and opened his eyes.

"Hey, are you okay?"

"Better than okay." Gil repeated. He smiled at Nick and this time when Nick moved to get off of him, he let him go.

Nick stood before Gil, totally unashamed of his nudity. Gil wasn't so comfortable with himself and he pulled his robe together before he stood.

Nick reached down and picked up the buttplug. He studied it for a brief moment before saying in a very serious voice, "Next time, we use this on you."

Gil raised his eyebrows. Nick laughed. Gil took Nick's hand and led him towards the staircase. "We'll just have to see about that." Gil murmured. They were still laughing as Gil started their shower.

THE END