Title: Manifest Destiny
By: Yaba
Disclaimer: Don’t own anything..not even Speed *sigh*
Rating: PG
Classification: Calleigh/Megan, with Speed/Calleigh friendship
Author’s Note: Err...here goes nothing...I forgot who wrote the lyrics to that song so it’s the title.
Summary: Calleigh’s reaction to Megan’s departure.

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"Oh your reputation is so golden
your never lonely and your never home
I know you've been talking about leaving
you've lost all your feelings for this town.
Paint your nails and put your lipstick
you don't want to miss your ticket out..."
---Leaving Town

*** It’s suddenly cold in my bed, where I used to nurse her body. I remember the moments when early mornings would welcome our windows and we’d lay intertwined in the sheets and in each other, not caring if perhaps some one thought what we were doing was wrong.

Maybe love really was blind or maybe my perception of her was blind.

I met Megan at work; at first she seemed like the perfect woman. A shoe friend at that but nonetheless I figured we just loved the same things. Going shopping for shoes, black and white movies and cheesecake. Then things started to shift, I don’t know if perhaps God intended or what not but I started to see her in a different light.

I stopped seeing her as just Megan, but as *Megan*-the beautiful, sophisticated, devilishly intoxicating brunette. She wasn’t just Sean’s wife, or Horatio’s right hand woman, or Speed’s mentor, she was some one I could see spending the rest of my life with…I was falling in love with Megan and the sad thing is I didn’t know until it was too late.

You know that phrase, you don’t know what you have until you loose it...well it applies here more than I want it.

I remember one time when we lay next to each other...it was the day that Megan was supposed to leave...

//Flashback//

"Good morning baby." Megan nuzzled at my neck softly. "Sleep well?" I asked her, twisting a soft curl between my fingers. "Definitely." She grinned at me and we kissed again.

"We’re gonna be late for work." I replied, it was close to eight o’clock, way past what my alarm would say.

"They’ll manage with out us." Megan assured lazily trailing soft circles on my bareback. "You sure, I mean with out enough estrogen, they’ll go insane." I teased. "I’m sure they’ll hold down the front while we girls have a little fun." She made her advances noted and began to kiss her way down my arm.

"Megan... I love you." I whispered to her and I think she almost stopped breathing. She stopped her torture and looked up at me with an almost dumbfounded expression and what not. "Your right." She stated, getting off the bed, "We’re gonna be late for work." Then she was gone...

We were at my apartment that morning so she left to go home...or so I thought.

//End//

Staring at the ceiling in my bedroom I sigh. I wish I had gone with her that morning, I don’t know what good it would’ve done but I at least would have found out that the woman of my dreams was leaving, from her not from Horatio, who was as smitten as I was, as it turns out.

He looked so confused when he told us the news, I thought he might have loved her too, but it didn’t make a difference because the woman of our dreams was gone, and no one had any idea if she was coming back or not...

***

Calleigh walked out of her room miserably, heading for the mail table to check the letters from last night.

"Bills, bills, bills." She murmured to herself unhappily and then she looked at a letter, addressed to her, from Megan Donner.

Taking a deep breath Calleigh opened it and began reading,

Dear Calleigh,

I am so sorry that I left you like that. I never meant for this to happen, I never even expected for you to enter my life. I was just picking up the pieces of my broken heart after Sean died and you became my savior. You held me as I cried, you made me laugh when I was down and most importantly you reminded me that it was okay to love some one so early after Sean’s death.

Truth is that morning that I decided to leave, I got cold feet. I never expected you to admit your feelings; as a matter of fact I never even knew you felt the same. I love you Calleigh, so much, and I wish things were different, but they aren’t. So instead of dwelling on what might have happened I hope with this letter you find closure, and move on, but don’t forget me, because I sure as hell wont ever forget you...

Love, Megan

***

Calleigh wiped the stray tears off her pale cheeks. It should’ve felt normal, she should’ve felt closure but she couldn’t. It wasn’t meant to be yet, something told her she’d never be able to get over this amazing woman, most importantly ever love some one like that again...

Walking into the kitchen she turn on the water and ran her face underneath it, then she looked at her stove. Turning on one of the burners she let the letter burn, and burned her fresh cheeks away with the tears that wouldn’t stop coming...

Yet she had to move on...

Picking up the phone she dialed his phone number, "Hello." "Speed, hi, it’s me Calleigh." She couldn’t hold back choking on her sobs. "Cal what’s wrong?" "I, uh, can you come over please." "Sure I’ll be there as soon as I can." "Thank you."

And eventually she would but now, now she needed her best friend to come and wallow with her...because Calleigh just had her heart broken, and she didn’t know what to do...

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