TITLE: Memories
BY: sexycazzy
RATING: PG-13
CHARACTERS: Mac/Danny
FANDOM: CSI: NY
GENRE: BDSM/slash
SUMMARY: Danny and Mac remembers how they got together.
Warning: some light BDSM references
Writer's Note: I don't own any of the characters, they belong to CSI:NY and its team. :( Can be read stand-alone, but have three other one-shots – Washing Up, The Phone Call and The Wake-Up. This will be written from Danny's POV first, then Mac's POV. See how they remember their year together. :) As always, I welcome any feedback.

Danny

I remember being kissed by Mac, after being in an explosion that I was in. It was almost a year and a few months ago.

I remember how I enjoyed being kissed, how Mac's lips touched my lips. I remember seeing the angst, the twists on his face. I longed to reach out to stroke his face, but waited for him to speak. I remember him telling me that he has fallen in love with me, that he thought he would never love anyone else ever again, after his wife's death.

I remember looking up to Mac, and telling him that I loved him too. I remember being hurt, when he turned away from me and went out of the room. I thought then, that I would remember the kiss forever. Soon after, we never spoke of it again....till that time that Mac was shot.

I remember crying in front of Mac in his hospital room. This time, it was my turn to kiss him. This time, I told him that I would fight for our relationship, even if he was in denial. I was not in denial anymore. I love him, and I will always love him forever.

I remember Mac smiling, his face lighting up at my words. I remember him whispering in my ear as we kissed again, and again, that he won't ever leave me.

Since then, we learned about each other, each other’s habits, him telling me about Claire, me telling him about my past, the sexual abuse I suffered. I remember Mac holding me in his arms, as I told him, and I remember holding him in my arms as he told me about Claire.

Since then, we love each other, it is unconditional love that I have for my lover, and sometimes Master. I am his, and only his. I belong to him, and I don't mind, not at all.

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Mac

I watch Danny in my bed, he is there, really there, in the flesh. His lips, I remember the first time I kissed his soft lips. It was after one explosion that Danny was in. I was in denial for a long time. I loved him, before he knew it. I loved him with all my heart. The only other time I loved someone like that, was my wife, Claire. I was in denial because I thought I would betray Claire's memory. And it was with a man.....a man! Just not any man, Danny!

I was in denial until that explosion. I came this close to losing Danny, when I heard that he was in that explosion, I knew that I had to come after him. My heart ached as I watched Danny in that bed, wires and tubes all over him, I remember bending over to kiss him on the lips. He woke up then, and I told him that I loved him; he told me he felt the same. I knew we could not be together, and so I walked away, to not hurt him, and to not let myself be hurt. I didn't want to have him and then lose him; I didn't want to go through losing someone I loved, ever again. My heart was broken, and in denial.

Until I was shot. The only face appeared in my mind, as I was falling was Danny. When Danny came to me and kissed me, and said he would fight for me, my heart mended again, and I am not in denial anymore.

From that time, I told him about Claire. I loved telling Danny about Claire, answering his questions. I realised that my heart can hold 2 people - Claire and Danny. They are two separate people, I love each for different reasons. Claire is not here right now, Danny is, and I will always love him. When Danny told me about his past, the sexual abuse, I was fuming inside, I wanted to kill that guy who abused my lover, my partner.

I knew that it was not easy for Danny to tell me, and after that night, I knew that my heart is taken by Danny, my lover and sometimes submissive. Danny belongs to me, and only me.

I watch Danny beginning to wake up, and I reach out for his face, take it in my hands and kiss him firmly on the lips.

"I love you so much....don't leave me." I speak, gently.

"I won't, never will leave you. My heart belongs to you." Danny whispers, shakily. "And I love you too."