Title: Watching 'My Love' Sleep
Author: cjacsifan
Pairing: Catherine/Sara
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: CSI is owned by CBS and Jerry Bruckheimer
Summary: Catherine watches her lover sleep.
Spoilers: A few throughout the show's run
A/N: Story is from Catherine's P.O.V.; Companion piece to Watching 'My Angel' Sleep.

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I wake up and turn on the light and I see the love of my life Sara Sidle thrashing in her sleep once again, so I gently shake her and whisper comforting words to her and tell her "Go back to sleep my love,' and once I say that she falls back to sleep.  I turn the light's intensity down and watch as 'My Love' sleeps and wonder to whatever deity is listening what I did to deserve a wonderful woman like Sara in my life.

Watching her lying next to me is a constant reminder of how far we've come in our relationship since she came to Vegas all those years ago at Grissom's request; I was so angry at both of them, but at her mostly because she was an outsider coming here to investigate one of our own and MY best friend, Warrick Brown.  I never gave her an inch, I would demean her at every chance whether it be about her investigative skills, her work habits which I saw as her way of kissing up to Grissom, then there were her social skill or as I used to call them her 'anti-social' skills because she was never one to join us in any of our breakfasts after shifts.

I see that she is smiling and I know she is dreaming about the three of us, She and I and my daughter Lindsey who loves her almost as much as I do.

Thinking about the three of us reminds me of that case were my now dead ex-husband Eddie nearly drown my baby while trying to meet one of his 'stars' as he called the little wench, and the two of them left Lindsey in his car as it was sinking in the resevoir...God that pissed me off, then Grissom gave Sara the case and she couldn't close it and that really set me off.  All that changed a few weeks later when Sara found out the EMT she was dating had a girlfriend and the schmuck was using Sara to cheat on his girlfriend, it was there that I finally got to meet the real Sara Sidle, the sweet, caring, quick-witted, funny, very lovely woman I know today; she even apologized for not solving Eddie's case.

Our friendship was blossoming when I asked Sara for help on a case of a woman buried in tar, somehow she could tell the woman was a victim of abuse and she called me on it even to the point of saying I let my sexuality cloud my judgement right in front of Ecklie,  he suspended her for two weeks.

Things were getting better between us, then the unthinkable happened; Nick was kidnapped and luckily we found him.  It was after that Sara told me her true feelings for me; she loved me.  I couldn't believe it after all the crap I put her through; the fights, the insults, the suspension, she still cared for me.   I told her that I cared for her too and we planned our first date.

The night of our first date came and she told me that she wanted to tell me something that only Grissom knew; she told all about the abuse at the hands of her parents and the circumstances of her father's death at the hands of her mother.  We cried in each other's arms, she was wondering why I was staying and it was then I told her what a wonderful, caring, intelligent, sweet person she was and we have been together ever since, she is even a second mother to Lindsey.

I see Sara's brow furrow, which means she is having another nightmare so I kiss her on the forehead and the cheek and whisper, "Good night My Love...sweet dreams."  I see a smile come to her face as I turn out the light and we snuggle up to each other and fall blissfully asleep.