Title: The Worst Is Yet To Come
By: Jaxson K.
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Rating: G
Summary: Greg deals with the aftermath...
A/N: character death

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Greg woke up screaming like he did almost every night. The dream was always so vivid. In the dream, Nick being shot plays over and over while Greg tries to save him. Even though Greg wasn't there when Nick was killed, he dreams that he was. He gets out of bed and starts the coffee, crying the whole time. Greg cries a lot these days.

He decided to go to the cemetery and gets ready to do so. This will be the first time he has been back since Grissom and Warrick carried him kicking and crying to Grissom's Tahoe and brought him home. He puts on a false face for the gang at work, making them think he's going to be okay.

On the way to the cemetery, Greg thinks of so many things regarding Nick. The way he smiled, that soft Texas twang when he talked, so many things. Each thought hurt so bad, but Greg knew it would. It always did. When he reached the cemetery, Greg parked and walked to Nick's grave. His vision blurred with tears, Greg knelt and laid flowers on the headstone and then sat down.

He sat there and cried so long and so hard that his chest hurt. When he finally calmed himself a bit, he began to talk to Nick.....

"...so little time has passed since you went away. I want to know where are all these heartaches coming from? It hurts so bad to know that you're not with me anymore. I have nightmares about what happened. I stay depressed all the time, but I try to hide it. I cry all the time. I cry myself to sleep and I start crying when I wake up. I miss you so much, Nicky! I miss your arms holding me at night, I miss the way you made love to me, I miss everything. The sad part is that this is just the beginning, all this heartache and tears. The scary part is that I know the worst is yet to come........"

Greg stood up and made his way to his car. As he was driving away, he looked in the rearview mirror and thought..."I still love you , Nicky, and I always will."

END

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