Title: Changes
By: Jaxson K.
Pairing: Nick/Gil
Rating: PG
Summary: Nick is ready to make some changes in his and Gil's relationship. Nick's POV.

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I know I have to talk to Gil soon because I'm not happy with our current situation. Trouble is, I'm afraid that if I do, the whole thing will blow up in my face and I'll lose him. Gil seems to be satisfied the way things are, but I'm not. The way things are now, I feel like a whore. He comes and goes as he pleases, but you best believe I'd better be on hand and ready for whatever he's got in mind.

I guess what I need to do is explain to him how all this is making me feel, and hope that he understands. If he doesn't, then I guess he has no place in my life after all. It hurts to look at it that was, but that's just the way it is. I'm better than that, and deserve to be treated better. I mean, come on, just because I'm in love with Gil doesn't give him the right to treat me like shit.

Greg had to do the same thing with the guy he was seeing, and they broke up. I sure hope that doesn't happen to Gil and I. You see, I've been in love with Gil for quite a while, and it's only been fairly recently that I told him how I felt. He was surprised at first because he had no idea. It was after that when he confessed his feelings for me and we started seeing each other.

Maybe we jumped into this too soon. I really don't know. All I do know is that Gil's gonna have to shape up because I feel that I deserve to be treated better than this. Anyway, it's getting close to time for him to be here so I'd better go get ready. He's in for a big surprise tonight because I'm going to try and talk to him. Hopefully things will be okay, and he'll understand.

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