Title: Count The Seconds
By: -x-BlackFaith-x-
Fandom: CSI: Miami
Characters: Timothy Speedle (Speed)/Horatio Caine
Prompt: 087: Heart
Word Count: 1012, with lyrics
Rating:PG-13
Summary: The song is by a British singer called Amy Studt and it's called Seconds Away. I heard this and the scene just popped into my head...

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I feel you,
Inside me,
And slowly
I'm gone
I'm losing
It quietly
Drawn into
The sun.


Even after all this time, I still feel you. Inside me, pushing in and out; making me feel indescribable things. But most of all, making me feel wanted, loved. Your eyes never left mine, even as you fell over the edge into perpetual bliss; you were still focused on me. Only me. You were mine, you gave yourself to me, and it was everything and nothing all at the same time.

Lovers go
And lovers come
It's the same for everyone.
For my life I'm holding on,
It's fragile, precious.


I've had numerous lovers in the past. Women and Men. None of them were you. I think that's why they never worked out. I've been unconsciously looking for you since my life began. You were the one I was to spend my forever with, and no-one else would ever be right for me. I've had my heart broken many times, and broken a few hearts, but none of it matters now, not now I'm with you.

I see you,
Inside me,
And softly
I'm done.
I'm falling,
I'm melting
like liquid,
I run.


I melted. The sight of you towering over me, your beautiful body hovering over mine, your eyes boring into me, your fingers branding my skin like hot pokers wherever they touched. I watched you watching me, and it was the last thing I remembered before the world exploded into a thousand different colours that blinded me with their intensity. It took a long time for me to come down from that high. I had never experienced that before, and I knew that you were the only one who could give it to me.

Love is all
And love is none
But it changes everyone.
For a moment, then it's gone,
It's fragile, precious.


Love is a funny thing. A lot of people claim they love you, but do they? I don't think anyone has ever experienced love until they feel this. This isn't ‘Love'. This is something that is beyond that, something that surpasses everything and takes you to a higher plain of existence. It isn't fluffy bunnies and birdsong. It's more that that, and less. It is everything and nothing.

Count the seconds away to the sound of your heart.
What a beautiful day to get lost in the dark.
Count the seconds away to the sound of your heart.


I count the seconds away to your heart beat. It's gone past two hours now. It's in perfect time. I see the sun just rising over the ocean out of the window. The sky is streaked with pinks and peaches, the colour chasing away the dark of the night. I was lost last night. Lost in you. In your touch, in your everything. I remembered thinking that I never wanted to be found. I wanted to die right there in your arms, and hope that my body would stay there forever.

It's endless,
Completeness.
I drown in
your arms,
My senses
awakening
How freeing
you are.


I feel complete now. You were the missing part of the puzzle, the last piece that I had to find. The other half of my whole. I've gone through my life trying to tell myself that I would never feel this complete, this whole. It didn't work. I was still looking for you, no matter if I was aware of it or not. You are my Ocean, my sky, my world and everything in it. I feel like I was a blind man, and suddenly, I have my sight again, and the whole word is dazzling and beautiful to my eyes. Like a starving man hungering for food and water, a deaf man retrieving his hearing and listening to the birds once again.

From the depths of where I came
From the embers to the flame.
I feel like a child again,
I'm fragile, restless.


My senses have been awakened. I feel like I'm a child again, running around in the fields, touching the first breath of summer. Careless, free. Innocent. My innocence is long gone now. I have seen many things, nasty, evil things. Things that make me want to scream in rampant rage about the unfairness of it all. But when I'm with you, everything slips away. The unfairness of life because background noise if only for a few precious hours.

Count the seconds away to the sound of your heart. (To the sound of your heart)
What a beautiful day to get lost in the dark. (To get lost in the dark)
Count the seconds away to the sound of your heart. (To the sound of your heart)
What a beautiful day to get lost in the dark. (To get lost in the dark)
Count the seconds away to the sound of your heart. (To the sound of your heart)
What a beautiful day to get lost in the dark.


I'm still counting. I glance over to the clock and see that it is only 4am. I've been awake since roughly 2am. There is something oddly soothing about this. It proves to me that you are still here, that you haven't left me. That you are alive. My fingers start to trace nonsensical patterns on your sun darkened skin, and my counting starts to falter. You body moves under my head, and your heartbeat picks up a little, telling me that sleep is drifting away from you. My fingers still trace, and my counting finally stops as your heartbeat has become too quick to be in time. I smile slowly, and I look up just in time to see the lids slowly open over you beautiful brown eyes. You look at me, and I move up your body to kiss your full mouth. When we part, I simply stare at you as you at me.

"Good morning," you say, your voice husky with sleep. I stroke my hand down your cheek, your stubble rough against it.

"Good morning," I reply.

You smile.

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