Title: The Dark Part Of My Mind
Author: Jaxson K.
Pairing: Nick/Gil, mentions of other CSI characters
Rating: NC-17
Summary: AU, Everyone has a bit of a dark side, but some are darker than others.
Warning(s): dark subject matter, dark!Nick
A/N: Nick's POV, not intended to freak anyone out

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Everyone thinks I'm a nice guy, and for the most part, I am. I'm seen as the everyday guy that happens to be liked and respected by co-workers and friends alike. But what they don't know is that I have a dark side…a very dark side. If people knew what goes through my mind sometimes, they'd run the other way, or have me committed to the nearest rubber room.

I don't know when it started exactly, but I know it's been there for a long time. I've gotten really good at controlling it, and I only allow myself to visit that part of my mind rarely. Today happens to be one of those days, and I think I might take you along with me…..

Our first stop is the lab. Conrad Ecklie is first on my list. I'd like to chain him to a rack, and give him a good flogging with a cat-o-nine tails, and make him beg for mercy, only to deny him. Next up is Sara. God knows there are many things I'd like to do to that bitch. At the top of the list is gouge her eyes for even ever looking at Gil. He's mine, and will never, ever be hers.

Then there's Greg and Hodges. Greg is supposed to be my best friend, but there are times I'd like to lock him in a room with that useless suck-ass Hodges and make him listen to Hodges' pompous bullshit until his ears bleed. I'd really like to lock D.B. and Finn in a supply closet so they could just go ahead and fuck and get it over with. The sexual tension is there, no one wants to see it.

Finally we come to Gil Grissom. There are times when I want to throttle him just to make him shut up. When he gets started on something, he just won't let up. Another thing that drives me nuts is our sex life. It's so damn vanilla. There are times I want to introduce him to the joys of bondage, of rape, and a myriad of other joys that would make fucking him so much more bearable.

Well, there you have it. You've successfully made the journey with me to the dark part of my mind. There's more, but those are private things for only me to enjoy.

You never would have thought that Nick Stokes of all people could be so twisted, did you?

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