Title: Drabbles # 013, 014, 022
Author: ezra_t
Fandom: CSI: Miami
Pairing: Ryan/Eric
Rating: R
Warning: Angst
Summary: 013. Eric wonders when it all stopped being enough.
014. Eric gave it to Ryan and now he wouldn't take it back on his life.
022. Ryan knew that it would be too much in the end and still he fought on.
Disclaimer: I do own the circumstances. I don't own the people.

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013. Not Enough

The sorry's and the pleas would never be enough any more.
Nor the silent tears or the missing words.
Everything was broken now, shattered at his feet like a pile of broken beer bottles.
How had he gotten to this point?
Where not even the quiet "I love you's" were enough to make him smile.
The look in his lovers eyes weren't enough any longer, and he wonders when that explosion in his chest dwindled down to nothing but a flickering flame.
Because the lord knew that his lovers touch was no longer enough.
The fevered kisses were no longer enough.
The smiles, the caresses, the secret looks.
None of it mattered any more.
None of it was enough.
And yet he couldn't leave.
And as he sat in his dark room with out a sound but that of his slumbering lover he wondered.
When had Ryan become not enough?

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014. Heart

He didn't have a heart any longer.
It simply was no longer in his chest.
And he only had himself to blame.
After all he had willingly given it to Ryan.
And he'd never been so happy in his life.

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022. Too Much

The lies were to much.
The yelling was too much.
The tears.
The screams.
The late nights crying.
They were all too much.
What did he see in that man any ways?
He obviously wasn't right for him.
But true to his name he was so much like a wolf.
And he wouldn't be denied.
Even when he knew that in the end, the heartache would simply be too much.

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