Title: Fire on the Side
By: little arsonist
Pairing: Cath/Sara
Disclaimer: Wish they were mine, but they're not. ::cries::
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 308 (tried for 300)
Spoilers: Getting Off
Challenge: #14, Tori Amos song titles.
Author's Notes: 'Fire on the Side' is my second favourite song from Y Kant Tori Read, but 'Siren' haunted me enough to insert lyrics (in bold), using up words, not that it mattered.

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Never was one for a prissy girl...

I was the only one for her, when it was convenient, on our coinciding days off. I was blinded by disbelief that, after a year of telling myself to stop dreaming, we were together. Sometimes she called me, her voice husky on the phone as she invited me over. If I wasn't busy, I left within five minutes. If I was busy, whatever I was doing was neglected for a frantic dash for my car keys. Even if she didn't beckon me, seducing her was easy.

(It was all she wanted.)

The night I woke up to hear her whispers and quiet moans down the hall, I realized why she wasn't there with me when we were together. Somebody else had caught her eye. When she returned to bed, I pretended I never woke up, keeping my back to her so she wouldn't notice my hands clenching the blankets. She fell asleep as I cried silently on my side of the bed.

I knew someone had to lose.

I wanted to see who it was. It became an almost twisted obsession lasting three days, consuming me, making me look at everybody with a suspicious eye. One night, I saw her with him in his expensive car, she was smiling, and I didn't know what to do. I stood close to the doors, spinning to stare through the glass so if she looked in my direction, she couldn't see my tears of heartbreak. She wouldn't ever see me cry, for her, for imagining a love that could never be if she was with him.

It ended the second I saw them. Catherine shattered all my dreams of a future with her, breaking me apart inside. It was partly my fault for being foolish enough to fall for her in the first place.

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