Title: Head over Feet
By: Foxy Nighthawk
Pairing: Cath/Sara
Rating: PG-13
Note: This story is a stand alone piece. I am stuck on Blast from the Past tonight, so I figured I'd try writing a song fic of sorts. The song is Head over Feet by Alanis Morissette, and I thought it kinda fitted the relationship the two of them have in my head.
Disclaimer: I don't own Catherine or Sara. Nor do I own the song Head over Feet. I like both very much and just thought they would go good together.
Summary: Slashish. CS song fic. Sara's POV. Her thoughts on the developing relationship with Cath.

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Head over Feet

I had no choice but to hear you

You stated your case time and again

I thought about it

"I want to be with you." Catherine said to me for the third time in as many days. "I want you and me to be us." I didn't answer, and she continued. "Just think about it."

And I did.

Thinking was easy – being was too. She argued her case so well, and I love her for it. I love her for loving me.

You treat me like I'm a princess

I'm not used to liking that

You ask how my day was

"Good morning, Honey. I made you breakfast." I have never been treated like this before. She made me feel loved and protected. She was my Princess Charming.

"Did you have a rough night?" She asked me, concern evident in her voice. She came up behind me and hugged me holding on tight. "Sorry I wasn't there to help you."

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

I love you, Catherine. I want to scream it from the top of the tallest building for everyone to hear. You have me and all of me. I need her to know this. I have fallen in love and I want every little bit of this woman in front of me. Please give me all of you. I will protect you till my dying breath.

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole

You're so much braver than I gave you credit for

That's not lip service

"I have never felt loved before I met you. No one ever wanted to try. You are there to hold me when I cry. You helped me deal with my past. No one has ever done that before. You are amazing. There is no one better than you in the world." She is sitting before me, silent. Her eyes tell me she doesn't believe my words to be true. "You are my world. You are my world. And in my world there are no lies."

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

I love her and she made that happen. She is ashamed of her past, though she hides her shame well. She's told only me. She felt dirty having to be near naked to make money. I don't care. She did what she had to do to live. She has flaws and it makes her imperfectly perfect. I love her in spite of her flaws. I love her because of them. And she made that happen.

You are the bearer of unconditional things

You held your breath and the door for me

Thanks for your patience

She is the bearer of unconditional love – unconditional love for her daughter and unconditional love for me. She looks nervous as she stands by the door holding it open as I carry in the last of my boxes. "Welcome home." Finally she has me fully. I made her wait so long, too long. I'm sorry for my insecurities, and I thank you for waiting.

You're the best listener that I've ever met

You're my best friend

Best friend with benefits

What took me so long?

We lie in bed, limbs wrapped together. I whisper to her my life story and she listens carefully. Listens to every word pouring out of my mouth. I have never had a friend, but I do now. I have her. Luckily she is my lover too. It took me years, but I have finally allowed myself to be loved by her. I should have listened a long time ago.

I've never felt this healthy before

I've never wanted something rational

I am aware now

I am aware now

She wants to spend time with me. She wants me to be there to hold her when she sleeps. She wants me to go to her daughter's school plays with her. She wants to hold my hand on a sunny day – and on the rainy days too. She wants me to come home when shift is over. She is waiting for me to come home, or go home with her. She makes me remember to eat right. She makes me want to go out into the sun. I have colour in my cheeks now. She makes me feel real. I want a family with her. I realize that I do. I have a family for the first time in my life. Of that I am blissfully aware.

You've already won me over in spite of me

Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

She will never leave me. She told me that, she promised that. I will never leave her. We have good days, we have fights, but we stay together. I have fallen and I will stay fallen. I have all of her and she made that happen.

It's all her fault. It's all her fault and for that I love her even more.

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