Title: Nightmare
Author: Carolina
Pairing: Gil/Nick pre-slash
Category: angst
Rating: PG
Spoilers: "Grave Danger"
Summary: It was like being in a nightmare.
Disclaimer: Sadly, not mine
Beta: laurelgardner. Thank you very much! J

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It was like being in a nightmare,
Looking at you in that screen.
I couldn't say a word,
I couldn't move...but I wanted to scream. I wanted to kick the wall
I wanted to drop on my knees, to curl in a ball and to cry...
But I knew they were waiting for me,
They needed me, my lead.
They all need Grissom, the boss.
And Grissom is always cold, he always knows what to do.
So I calculated how much air you still had in that coffin,
I talked to your parents,
I faced the monster that had taken you,
And when Warrick didn't want to leave you, I begged him to trust me
Because I knew what I had to do.
And I did know it..
I had to save you.
When we opened the box,
When I saw your face, your tears and your fear I wanted to let it go,
I wanted to let you know, to let you all know,
But I knew better. Grissom knew better, and I stayed there, watching Warrick and Cath go with you in that ambulance..closing my fingers so hard the nails entered my palms,
Struggling to be calm, to be sure to be Grissom... for you for you all.
But when you were gone,
I couldn't help myself and murmured to Ecklie
"I want my guys back."
And it was true; I wanted my guys back,
I wanted my guy back.
I wanted my Nick back.
Just for a moment Gil had slipped out and Grissom hadn't been able to stop him.

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