Title: Things I've Never Told You
By: darthkel
Feedback: Yes please as this is only the second story I've ever written and my first slash story. And be honest lemme know if it sucks.. DarthKel@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: If you think they're mine you're more deluded than I am. I'm just borrowing them off some really rich people. Don't sue me I'm just a poor childcare worker.
Pairing: Brass/Nick Post ep for Stalker
Archive: If you want it it's yours just let me know where.
Rating: PG to be safe I guess.
Authors Note: Ok I've had this evil little plot bunny running around in my head ever since someone on the list mentioned a scene in Stalker.
Spoilers: Stalker

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Brass' point of view.

'It's alright Nicky... It's done.. It's done...' I reach over to touch him, to make sure it's real... He's still there.. He's safe... I let my hand linger on his shoulder. He looks at me his dark eyes bright with unshed tears and all I want to do is pull him into my arms, to feel his heart beating next to mine. So I could gently kiss away his tears. But Nick has no idea how I feel.

I watch as he walks towards the door, following the police as they take Crane out.

'You need a ride Nicky?' I ask when what I really want to ask him is if he needs me.

He looks at me, his beautiful brown eyes still sparkling. 'Thanks Captain Brass. That'd be nice.'

We walk to my car in silence. All I can think is what if we hadn't got there in time. What if he'd.... My heart aches as he sits beside me silently. If he only knew how he haunts my dreams, and that the fact that I will never get to hold him is my waking nightmare.

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Nick's point of view

My heart is pounding as I stare down the barrel of a gun... My own gun. I'm going to die.. Shot by my own gun.

'How do you want this to end Nigel?' I ask barely able to conceal my fear.

'I want you to be able to remember my name' he points the barrel of the gun towards his face.

I move towards him then everything is a blur, I hear the door burst open and shouting.

And then he's there... I feel his hand on my shoulder, I want to throw myself into his arms. To feel his strength, his arms around me, to breathe in his scent, to feel alive.

'It's alright Nicky.. It's done.. It's done.' His words soothe me, I love the way he says my name. His hand lingers a moment and I feel a sense of loss when it drops from my shoulder.

I watch as they take Crane outside. I want to scream, I want to cry, but more than anything I want him to hold me.

'You need a ride Nicky?' He asks.

No I need you... My mind screams.

'That'd be nice Captain Brass' I answer.

We walk to his car in silence. So much I want to say but I just can't find the words. It's not like he has any idea how I feel, or he ever will. I glance over at him, my eyes taking him in. Silently wishing, but knowing it can never be.

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Nick's Point of view.

'I am one who am I... I am one who am I... I am one who am I... I am one who am I...'

I stand looking at him. 'Why me?'

'I don't really think it was about you' I hear Grissom start but I am not really paying attention to him.

I watch as they lead him out the door. I feel Catherines hand on my shoulder as she tries to reassure me. They all walk out leaving me to my thoughts.

When I finally walk outside everyone else is gone.. but he's there.

'You got somewhere to stay tonight Nicky?' He asks looking at me intently.

'I hadn't really thought about it' I'm tired and my head is thumping.

Brass moves toward me 'Come on, you can stay with me I've got a spare room.'

I just nod as I allow him to steer me outside to his car.

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Brass's Point of view

I watch them take Crane away, the sight of him makes me sick to my stomach. That bastard is sick, he could have killed Nick.

So I stand her watching as one by one they all walk away and leave him alone. So much for friends. I would never walk away and leave him alone after what's happened.

After what seems like an eternity he too walks out of the room.

'You got somewhere to stay tonight Nicky?' I ask nervously.

'I hadn't really thought about it' he sounds tired, and he must be hurting like hell.

'Come on, you can stay with me I've got a spare room.' I walk towards him and gently put my hand on his shoulder, he nods and we slowly walk outside to my car.

We drive to my house in silence, I glance over at him and realize he's fallen asleep. We pull into my driveway and I sit for a moment my eyes taking him in. I get out and walk around to his door, opening it slowly so I don't startle him. I put my hand gently on his shoulder. 'Wake up Nicky' I try not to scare him, but his eyes fly open and he calls out 'NO'.

'It's alright Nicky.. It's alright' before I realize what I'm doing I'm stroking his face, looking into those deep brown eyes, trying desperately to calm him.

'I'm ok' I realize he's looking at me and my hand drops from his cheek.

'Let's get you inside' I mutter as we walk toward the front door.

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Nick's point of view

I don't remember the drive to his house, I must have fallen asleep sometime after we left. I'm dreaming that I'm still there, in my house with that lunatic Crane, except this time no one comes. I watch as he puts the gun to his head.

'NO' I shout to him, then I realize I'm dreaming. I hear Brass talking but I can't make out the words, I feel his hand touching my cheek. For a moment I do nothing, savouring the feel of his hand on my skin.

'I'm ok' I mumble when I realize he's looking at me. His hand falls away from my face as I get out of the car.

I hear him mutter something about getting inside, I raise my hand to my cheek as we walk towards his front door.

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