Author: Lora
Pairing: Cath/Sara & past Catherine/Stephanie
Rating: G
Summary: Fifteen years and I will never, ever forget you.
Spoilers: Felonious Monk
Keywords: Catherine/Stephanie Relationship, CSR
Word count: 346
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Fifteen years and we still haven't caught him Steph. I can't tell you how sorry I am for that, I tried, I really did but I guess it wasn't enough.
Fifteen years and I still miss you so much. I think about you everyday, about us...the fun we had. We could have been so happy together if only you hadn't been snatched away from me like that. God, It still hurts after all this time.
Fifteen years and my life has really changed Steph. I got out of the club, I made something of myself. I made a new life for me, without Eddie. You showed me what real love was, I had to get away from him and my past. It took a long time but I made it, and here I am.
Fifteen years and I am a mother. She's called Lindsey and she's my beautiful little angel. I wish you could have met her, I just know you would have loved each other. God I miss you.
Fifteen years and I've held onto you and your love everyday. I think it's time for me to let you go. I've met someone, an amazing woman who makes me feel beautiful, special...alive. I wanted to come and tell you so that you know that I'm happy, that I'm living life the way you wanted me to. I hope you understand why I need to let you go. I love her so much and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. Do you think you can look down on us and smile? I'm not trying to replace you, that would be impossible.
Fifteen years and you were my first true love, my life, my strength.
Fifteen years and I will never, ever forget you.
I place the white roses by her grave and kiss two fingers, touching the top of the cold stone. I walk towards the gate where Sara is waiting for me and slip my hand into hers. I turn and say goodbye for the last time.
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