Title: Unknown Lover
By: Bobbie
Fandoms: CSI: Miami
Pairings: Horatio/Eric & Horatio/Speed
Rating: NC-17
Archives: Yes, please
Disclaimer: I don't own the show, characters, or song belongs too Evanescence.
Warnings: Angst,Swearing, Mentions of rape, Memories of child abuse, Non-con, Violence, Some domestic abuse, M/M slash (hopefully), POV.You've been warned.
Author's Note: I wondered about the character's past and decided to experiment.
Summary: "How could this have happened?"***
( I can't believe that this may be the last time that I'll ever see Horatio alive again.) I thought miserably, waiting by his hospital quietly as tears burn my eyes and I suppress them. ( This is so fucking unfair. I'll kill whoever did this.)
But I already knew who put my lover here and cursed mentally at everything that I missed. The monitors that are in the room with us beep constantly too let me know that he's still alive but H shouldn't be in here. Our doctor had come in earlier and told me that he'd have a long road ahead once he came out of the drugs but I just held his hand and try to coax him back with loving whispers.
How could this have happened?
My tired mind races over the events of the last few days which ended when I got a call for a domestic assault and practically had a heart attack at the address that it was called in from. I went numb when I arrived and walked into the destroyed interior of our house only to see a blood trail leading from the door too our bedroom so I followed it slowly.
"Horatio?" I called, looking around the dark hall cautiously, a sick feeling in the pit of my gut. " Are you in here?"
(Please be alive babe.) I prayed silently, entering the room and freezing in shock at the scene before my eyes. ( Fuck no! Please, PLEASE be okay.)
I went over to the bed and untied the red head who groaned painfully before jerking away from me, blue eyes filled with alarm as my heart broke. He had been heavily beaten and, judging by the mess around the floor, raped but who did it? One name came into mind instantly as I brought a blanket over to him.
"Get those medics in here right now!! He's alive!" I yelled as the paramedics rushed in and Horatio cringed away.
(Delko! ) I growled mentally, watching as H was loaded into the ambulance and I joined him. ( I'll get you for this Eric.)
Why the fuck do you think he left you for me?
You know, its funny to look back on that now, six weeks after the fact but it scared me then. The door opening and closing alerted me too the arrival of someone else so I looked up to see Yelina standing there silently as more anger flared into me. I was pissed at her because she didn't come to his aid when he called her for protection from Eric.
" What the hell do you want?" I asked in soft anger as she backed away slightly. " Well? Did you catch him yet?"
Yelina nodded slowly then looked down at her brother- in- law's sleeping face and had the nerve to ask me how he was doing.
Where was she when I had to pick him up at a local convient store covered with bruises from the latest fight?
"You didn't care about him when Eric was beating the shit out of him." I said bitterly, holding her gaze briefly before returning it too his face. " I don't recall seeing you sitting by H's side in the E.R. while the doctor taped his ribs."
She turned on her heel and stormed out as I felt him stir into consciousness as I gave him a warm smile that eased the fear in his gaze.
" Welcome back honey, you had me worried." I said gently, holding his hand in mine and locking on his eyes as he glanced back. " Its okay Horatio. I'm the only one in here. Are you thirsty?"
" Eric?" He asked hoarsely as I sighed and poured him some water. " Did they catch him, Timmy?"
I smiled at the name and held the cup steady as he drank some of the liquid slowly. That one question was laced with hurt and it took all of my control not too break down right there so I ran my forefinger over the IV line stuck in his hand lightly which comforted him.
"Want some music, H? I brought your radio in." I said, indicating the small CD player/ radio combo unit on the stand.
Horatio nodded and I flipped it on before finding his favorite station as the soft music flowed around us like warm water in winter. Not many people know this but H loves rock music so we sleep with it on every night at home.
(Home? Fuck! ) My mind yelled. ( I'll have too find us an interior designer to redo the place before he gets released. )
His grip on my hand tightened as I looked down at it and a song played over the air waves that made me smile. It was one of his favorites. In fact he had the CD but he'd only listen to it whenever I was around .
"I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem too heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me..."
(I hate Eric for what he did too you.) I thought, anger raw in my stomach.( I hate your childhood for what you suffered. You deserve too be loved.)
"You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's so much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me..."
Horatio's eyes were closing and I knew that he was exhausted from everything so I let him sleep while listening to the rest of our song alone.
"I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me..."
I got up and walked over to the window only to glance out at the Miami sky scape silently, tears running down my unshaven face but I wiped them away with my sleeve. I needed to be strong for him. After all, We had been down path before and I was more than ready too go down it again.
Horatio had been hurt and abused so much during his life that I was surprised that the older man was still alive. Did you know that? I nearly shit when he told me why he had become a CSI. Back in Syracuse before I ran away, my mother would always talk about these abused kids and battered spouses who sought help but could never leave the situation on their own so they wanted protection from their aggressors.
When I first learned that Eric was beating and raping our boss, I had walked in on Horatio after he had just gotten out of the shower and was pulling his pants on as my eyes caught the pattern of welts and bruises criss crossing the slender back. I felt sick looking at it and confronted him about it but then Delko walked by, shutting him up.
( You should've come too me sooner H.) I thought, not hearing Alexx come in and jumping when she spoke.
"How is he Speed?" The slender woman asked as I faced here and shrugged my shoulders while running a hand through my raven hair unconsciously.
"The doctor says that he'll make it." I replied softly, watching as she frowned at the radio. " Don't touch that radio ,Alexx, or Horatio will kill you when he wakes up. Its his favorite station."
She seemed surprised by that little fact but left it alone and studied me quietly, concern etched on her face.
"How are you holding up Sugar?" She asked softly as I shrugged again.
"I've been here before with him Alexx." I answered shortly.
Alexx was confused by my answer but I didn't elaborate on it and waited for her explanation as too why she was here.
"They have Eric downstairs." She said slowly, uneasiness in her words as the anger flared into my brown eyes. " Frank and Yelina are with him now."
"I can't leave him now, Alexx." I said, sinking back into my chair and holding his hand again as he starts too wake up. " He needs me here. I'm the only one he trusts."
She nodded silently and left the room while I listened to the radio quietly, relief mixing with cold anger at the news that my lover's attacker was in custody. Just knowing that he couldn't hurt Horatio anymore was enough too make me feel better but we still had a long battle ahead as his blue eyes opened again.
"They got him H." I reassured the other man, feeling the relief flood through him and hearing them come in as I rose too stand in front the bed protectively and glaring at the Russian - Cuban coldly. " Why in the hell did you bring that piece of shit in here?!"
I wasn't going too let him within an inch of Horatio and was prepared to fight if the need arose but Frank shook his head.
"Is this the guy Horatio?" He asked simply as Horatio nodded and I growled in my throat.
"You cowardly dog!" Delko yelled as I swung my fist at him and nailed my former best friend square on the jaw, anger boiling out of me. " Bastard!"
"Just give me a fucking reason, Delko." I warned dangerously, eyes blazing. " I fucking dare you too!"
"Lets go!" Frank snarled, hauling him out of the room as I calmed down and faced Horatio, who looked sick.
I placed the bed pan in front of him and rubbed his back soothingly as he threw up, whispering words of comfort too him.
"Timmy." He said after I had flushed the mess and came back too his side, resting a warm, broad hand on my cheek while I leaned into it. " I love you."
" I know you H." I replied, kissing his palm lovingly and pushing some stray red hair from his forehead. " I love you too. More then life."
Horatio went quiet for a few minutes, thinking about something as I sighed for the tenth time. I knew the other man well enough by now to read his moods and he was scared but not for himself. He's never scared for himself. No, the fear is for me and he's wondering if I'm going too walk out of his life.
"I'm going to stick by you like always ,H." I said gently, seeing his gaze glisten with unshed tears and I don't hesitate to go to his side as I wrapped my arms around him. " Its going to be all right , Horatio, I promise."
The wall comes down and he's sobbing against my shoulder as I tighten my hold around him, not letting go. No, I'll never let him go.
Epilogue
(Horatio's POV)
Its been six months since Eric's attack and Tim's never left my side. God, what a nightmare. In fact, I still bolt awake in the middle of the night in a cold sweat but all it takes is a kiss too my forehead and a set of strong arms too wrap themselves around me too chase the demons away.
Eric was ordered to undergo therapy and got transferred to another department with a restraining order against him but we didn't stck around for it. On Tim's concern of a possible repeat attack, we sold our house and moved the hell out of Florida just to put some distance between him and us. The moonlight thats shining in through our bedroom window illuminates my scruffy guardian angel as the lights of Vegas twinkle in the distance.
You should've seen the look on Grissom's face when he found out that I was the new supervisor of the Las Vegas Crime Lab's day shift. Tim still laughs about it but we've become friends with the entire shift although I like to tease Gil about his bug collection.
" Horatio?" A sleepy voice said from behind me as I returned to bed and curled up under the covers only to be pulled close to the strong body. " Don't scare me like that anymore babe. Thought you left."
"I'm not going anywhere Timmy." I whispered, kissing the handsome face. " I promise."
Tim goes back too sleep as I hear our song play over the radio, a smile forming on my face. I nip the broad shoulder lovingly and go too sleep. I know that we'll have too get up in six hours and face the remains of the night shift but I love the challenges each new day brings. Heh, wait until Grissom finds out that he has too pull a double shift with us today. He'll probably have a coronary.
The End***
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