Title: walking away
Author: jenny
Rating: PG-13, AU
Challenge: None
Pairing: Catherine/Sara
Spoilers: None
Disclaimer:not mine, never will be,
Word Count:335

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"Whatssmatta Catherine.............have I scared you? Freaked you out? Did I tell you too much? Have a tainted your judgment of me?"

Standing in one of the out-of the-way labs at CSI Sara was stalking forward, taunting Catherine with her twisted sadistic smile.

"Calm down Sara, what's wrong with you, your going out of control, please calm down"

"ah ha ah, you actually thought I was in control! You Catherine Willows actually thought I could control something......... funny that, because as far as I recall you didn't even think I could perform my job."

"Sara please, what's going on, I thought we had gotten past this? Talk to me Sara"

Sara's gaze narrowed, her nose flared ever so slightly as she pulled herself up to her full height, towering over Catherine.

"You don't see it do you Catherine, you just don't get it, I will never be past it Catherine, I fucked up and fucked us up as well. You wanna know the worse think Cat......honestly."

"I'm not to sure I wanna hear this Sara, I'm leaving."

Catherine turned around quickly, showing her back to Sara as she made her way to the door, her hand hitting the knob.

"Yes that's the way Catherine! Leave me here...............It's the best feeling in the world to walk away isn't it? Setting all your cares behind you, not looking back, not caring any longer. Enjoy it! But remember this my love, spare a thought for me, you can walk away from me when you sick of me, annoyed at me and angry at me........but I can't. I can't Catherine, I'm always stuck here, with myself, with my thoughts and there is no walking away for me."

Sara had tears in eyes, as Catherine turned back to face her and as she stared into those painful black depths of Sara's eyes she crumbled..........how could she leave her like this? She just couldn't.

Catherine eyes softened as she walked towards her lover pulling her into a bone crushing hug, running her hands over Sara's back Catherine leans down and whispers

"If your not walking away, then I'm not walking away......"

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