Title: Why I Love Being a Guy (An Essay by Greg Sanders)
By: flipflopadd1ct
Pairing: Nick/Greg
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Greg talks about masturbation. And Nick.

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I'm Greg Sanders. And I'm not ashamed to admit that I love jacking off.

Jacking off. Heh. That was always my favorite term for it – not jerking off, not wanking, but jacking off. Ever since I was a sexless preteen and I discovered the amazing sensations I created when I touched my dick, I've loved it. Now, I'm not a virgin, and haven't been for years, but wrapping my left hand around my hard cock and stroking 'til I scream to high heaven is still one of my favorite past times. There is truly nothing like closing your eyes and disappearing into your fantasies.

I've done it so many times and in so many different ways. I know my cock better than the back of my hand – seven and a half inches, cut, with a little curve to the left. There's a nice vein running up the underside that I love to trace with a finger or two.

There are so many options to jacking off - another reason why it's so great. I've used soft cotton boxers, silk, even velvet. Sometimes I just go for skin on skin. I've even tried cutting a hole in a banana peel and fucking it. Weird, but it's nice. Here's a tip - flavored lube makes clean-up fun! But lotion's probably my favorite lube. Everyone's got it in their cupboards and, plus, it smells great! Squirt a little into your hand, make a fist around your cock, and the slick liquid does it for you. You can even put some in a condom and use that. I learned that from a buddy back in eighth grade. I remember him well – he and I jacked off together countless times during high school.

I probably sound weird, but I love doing it. Masturbation...it's so simple! And everyone does it. There's a sense of community when you're with a bunch of guys and you all just pull out your cocks and start stroking away. I've been to so many masturbation parties that I've lost track. I guess you could say I'm pretty experienced in the art now – I know all the best techniques, what to do, what not to do (for example, using soap or shampoo really does fuck up your cock, so I highly suggest staying away from that). You know what else? If you search enough, I bet you can find one or two of my masturbation movies from college. Can you blame me? It was an easy – and fun – way to make money back then.

Let's see. Sometimes I'm a bit of an exhibitionist. The danger of getting caught makes an orgasm twice as powerful, you know. I've jacked off in the back of a cab after clubbing, I've done it in school, at the lab, in the movie theater...hell, once I did it in a church bathroom! A guy's cock is a needy thing, and when it wakes up, it needs to be played with or it'll bother him the rest of the day.

Ladies, you really don't know what you're missing. It feels so intimate, so private, so right to sprawl out on my bed, totally naked, and lightly stroke and touch and fondle my cock. As I feel that thick, hard, throbbing power in my hands it's almost spiritual – I get in touch with my body in ways I didn't know I could before.

All that aside, what I love most about masturbation is who I think about while I do it:

Nick.

We've only been in a relationship for two years, but ever since I saw him on my first day in the lab he had been the object of my fantasies. That day, I was so horny that I didn't even make it home – I rubbed myself through my jeans, hitting orgasm at a stoplight. I think the lady in the car next to me was giving me weird looks, but I ignored her. Still horny, I ran inside and stripped, jacking off again while thinking of Nick.

My fantasies of Nick are always vivid and, well, orgasmic. We've got a (very) healthy sexual relationship, but sometimes I still love to go at it alone, imagining sucking on Nick's tasty cock or feeling him buried inside me.

Not long after our first kiss, I learned that good ol' Nicky had a kink for masturbation too. He's so shy about it; it's adorable. He probably grew up believing it was a sin, but if it is, it's the sweetest sin. Watching me bring myself off is one of his biggest turn-ons – all I have to do is casually mention it and he's hard. Then again, there's nothing like seeing Nick get down and dirty with himself.

He's got a nice cock, Nick. It's impressive. Biggest one I've ever seen in real life and I bet it can give most porn stars a run for their money. I love touching it, jacking it off like its mine. It drives Nick crazy when I use both hands on his shaft, pumping furiously until we both come and I didn't even touch myself.

Another thing we like to do is sit in the living room on opposite chairs, naked, and do some mutual masturbation. We don't touch each other, but we watch each other. Watch our hands slide up and down on our own cocks until we come hard and start making out like there's no tomorrow...ah, fuck. I'm hard just thinking about doing it.

So I guess you could say we're both experts. Artists, if you will. Now, if you'll excuse me, I've learned about a new handjob technique that I've been dying to try on Nick!

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